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Hi guys!

My name is Chiara and I'm 19 years old. I haven't been on here for a while since I'm doing so much better, but I thought it was my duty to post a recovery story.

My DP started the 1st Febraury 2018. I had just finished my exams and was celebrating out with a friend. All of a sudden I start to feel dizzy. And I experience for the first time that sentation that haunted me for months, and that I can barely recall now. It was as though I was in a bubble, trapped behind a pane of glass. I didn't feel any emotion. Everything felt numb and weird. My memories didn't feel like they were mine anymore. The concept of time and space freaked me out. I also had a blank mind, I couldn't think, read, watch tv. I was a zombie trapped in a body that I didn't feel ike mine. The people I loved were strangers and no place felt like home. After 3 months of me ignoring the ever increasing feeling that something was wrong, I left school and went back home, since I couldn't physically study anymore. Last summer was probably the worst time of my life. I could barely leave the house, I was unresponsive, I didn't care about anything. I didn't have energy, I didn't want to live anymore.

I finally decided to go see a doctor, and that's when things started getting better. I can't stress this enough, guys. GO see a therapist and a psychiatrist. And if you don't like or trust the first one you go to, try another until you find the right one. I changed three therapists before I found the current one who's following me and who's made me feel so much better.

Medication

The psychiatrist put me on Citalopram. At first I thought it wasn't really helping, but after some weeks I started noticing a very small difference. The highest dose I was put on was 40 mg. But I still felt horribly. So he put me on Zyprexa as well. This medication was a true life savior for me. I started to feel better on the very first day of taking it. I'm currently taking 2,5 mg of Zyprexa and 10 mg of Citalopram.

Distraction

When it comes to distraction, I'm a little skeptical to think it can cure DP. But it definately played a role in my recovery. After I stared feeling a little better, I decided to go back to University. That was a HUGE help.

I am now fully functioning and I've just come back from a trip to Denmark with my boyfriend. I hadn't felt that good in ages. I was convinced I was never gonna feel love or amusement ever again, but boy I was wrong.

Studying really helps me staying focused too.

Cause

I'm still working with my therapist to understand te cause of my DP, but I think it was a combination of high stress and some traits of my personality that kind of fucked my brain up until it decided it was time for a break.

I feel now 99.9% recovered. The only thing that lingers just a bit is a subtle layer of numbess, that is lifting day by day.

There is hope guys! Keep fighting!

If you have any questions feel free to contact me.

Love,

Chiara
 

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Hey Chiara,

Thanks for posting. I am very happy for you. I am about 99% recovered as well.

I just wanted to tell you that i was on Cilatopram then Ecilatopram for about three months and while it made feel a little better, it was very numbing. I stopped it on my own (weaned off in 3 weeks or so) and still felt the withdrawal symptoms, but started getting my emotions back!

So in my personal opinion, it didn't help, it was just a matter of time for me to start feeling better. It was a longe process, but with distractions and a positive vision, it really does get better.

the 1% remaining for me is some brain fog and some of those "wtf did i just go through?" type of questions, but i am sure they'll get better with time too.

Cheers and congrats!

-J

Note to all: Everything does get 100% better. Do not lose hope. Do not give up. You'll feel normal again. Be positive!
 

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Thanks guys! I hope you'll get 100% better soon!

anything specific you did that really helped?
I'd say that zyprexa was the thing that really helped me gain my life back. I heard small doses of antipsychotics really help many people. Other than that I'd say reducing stress and start taking stuff less seriously was of huge help as well.
 

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Nope, I weaned myself off for about a month and now I’m completely medication free and feeling super duper good
 
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