[eclecticsheep]

you people complain that there are not enough recovery stories.
the last week i have been feeling kind of okay. not recovered
but i could enjoy a little some things like sex, games on the computer, comics... i felt like a little some feelings where finally communicating with me thry a little hole.
i must suffer from repressed feelings because when my mum went to the hospital or when my cat died i couldn't feel anything....

but then i thought about the exams and about how many times i have failed and a paniced! i am a math student.. and then everything was negative that i would have to go to a foreign country when i 'd graduate to get an extra dipomma and that i would lose my friends

and now i am in this pit hole again for days

my stupid psychologist (he is pretty nice actually) accuses everything to my black and what sentimetal vision (that i believe that poeple are either good or bad)
but for me this is common stuff psychologist say and i feel i am not making an progress

 

[widescreened]

Hi eclectic sheep,this is the thing youve got to expect with this mindset;setbacks.Sometimes worrying about normal things can make it worse,and sometimes it comes out of the blue.you seem to be worrying about the unknown which is no use to anyone.going away from friends after college is a fact of life.You can always make new ones and stay in touch with your old ones.hope you are still playing music.

 

[eclecticsheep]

no. i can't stand it anymore. three years i have been playing without understanding and i have given up.
last night i went to a heavy concert and i almost fell asleep... i used to love this kind of music .. after the first half an hour i wanted to cry because i couldn't understand anything