Hi, sorry to hear this, I know it can be really really isolating getting these horrible experiences, on top of all the other crap they bring. Hopefully you're getting some support to get decent help -- I know it can be so hard to get it. What physical check ups/mental health support have you had/are you having?
You don't have to answer any of this now or at all -- I basically just want you to know that you're not alone in spirit.
You don't have to answer any of this now or at all -- I basically just want you to know that you're not alone in spirit.