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I came to work this morning and my friend was speaking to me and (I should add that she looks like me) and I felt as if it was me speaking.. like I projected myself onto her or something. I'm losing my mind and I just want to leave work and run away somewhere=(

Am I starting to hallucinate? I mean, why do I think that I see (not really visually see) myself in other people... like we're all blending in. I'm afraid to look at anyone since everyone seems to appear so strange to me.

It's creepy. Please help.
 

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Hi Tidal,

In hopes of jumping in before you freak out...

I am thinking maybe this has become as obsessive thought pattern for you and now you are actually "looking" and "seeing" yourself in people. It is amazing how we will set our own thought patterns up and then let our brain take it to the highest limits.

Easy for me to say, but please try and redirect your thoughts this morning. Don't look at people and see if you can "see" yourself in them.

I hope some reassurance will help you during this totally unreal thought process.

Most sincerely,
terri*
 
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Thanks Terri,

I think you're right. I've been doing these mental self-tests since yesterday and I'm probably just freaking out for no reason.

As I said, I don't actually "see" anything... it's more of a "what if I am confusing people for me" or "what if I am really mental now since people speak and I feel like we're all blending in"....

I guess it's just anxiety and as I wrote it down, I started to realize how crazy that sounded.

God, my thoughts are all over the place=(
 
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It's very interesting, but this LAST place you should come when you're freaking that way is this board.

Important to turn all interest/focus AWAY from Self. When you log on here, it should be in calmer moments..to learn somethign, or describe something that happened at another time....to use your intellect when you are not so freaked.

But..when you have those moments like today, think about ANYThing besides self and dp. It feels like you need to focus ON the experience. That is, in fact, the worst thing you can do.

Love ya,
J
 
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Thanks Janine,

You're right I think. I keep running here each and every time I have a crazy thought, instead of working on acceptance, turning away from self etc.

I also think this may have something to do with the fact that I hate my job and each morning when I come in here, I have a bunch of new symptoms that I never get over the weekends.

Thanks to both of you.
 

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holy crap. i do that all the time. i'll be walking down the street and i'll think "oh my! there's shani!" but then i realize that i'm myself and that other person isn't me.

yay i'm not alone! yay you're not alone!
 

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Tidal,

I don't know if you're still feeling wonky, but i just wanted to add that if i had a dollar for every time someone wrote about what you're feeling, and how they thought this was the end of their sanity, etc, and if i had five dollars for every time that person was me, i'd be able to afford a lot more than the hotdog i'm eating for lunch.

I don't know what to add except to reiterate that it's anxiety, it will pass, and a lot of other people have been where you are right now.

good luck,

s.
 
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Tidal said:
I came to work this morning and my friend was speaking to me and (I should add that she looks like me) and I felt as if it was me speaking.. like I projected myself onto her or something. I'm losing my mind and I just want to leave work and run away somewhere=(

Am I starting to hallucinate? I mean, why do I think that I see (not really visually see) myself in other people... like we're all blending in. I'm afraid to look at anyone since everyone seems to appear so strange to me.

It's creepy. Please help.
There's something SIMILAR about everyone here...
Head-strong, analytical and sensitive.

There's some common under-thread of personality type I can hear in the people who post here.
I think it's an emotion. An emotional combination... Like love and anger or something...

Tidal, I hear imagination...
I hear imagination... nothing else.

You should doodle on a note pad at work or join an art class... you need to purge IMAGINATION, not insanity. I read your other post, where you want to get committed.
Your imagination SWINGS real bloody high y'know...

You sound like you EASILY slip into dark imagination states, like you swing very deeply into imaginative states.
I wanted to ask... do you get enough sleep? It sounds like you're missing out on deep REM. Maybe take Valerian Forte before you go to bed. JANINE, wipe "valerian forte" if I just broke a law.
 
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Thanks Ghost.

I know you're right. I've always been "blessed" or in this case cursed with vast imagination skills.

It's funny. When I do something that is utterly spontaneous (like taking a walk with someone this morning), there is no anxiety, no DP, no DR. It only comes when I have a lot of time to think about it and then I push it to a crazy extent.

I've decided to trust Janine and follow her advice. I'll try to do everything other than concentrating on self. Her post last night changed everything for me. She's so right. You can't DO anything to be sane or WILL yourself to stay sane. You either are or are not.

So I'll let this be and and try to do other things since self-analysis will not save me from my fear of mental illness.
 

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Tidal

I agree an active imagination can be a blessing, and a curse

I guess this is the flip side of the coin for people who are multi-dimensional in personality, creative, and imaginative
 
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All these horrible thoughts, ideas and compulsions are symptoms of anxiety. Once you know and really believe that they are anxiety they won't bother you. If you have a thought tell yoursef "its just anxiety".

I have had pleanty of moments where I have had urges to do the most ridiculous and dangerous things. Having said that I did some TFT (tapping) on the thoughts a few months ago and they haven't come back. Thank G-d.

Suz
 
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Suzanne,

I think that has been the issue with me since this whole thing started. I refuse to believe that it's "only anxiety". I think it's some mental illness etc. Yet during those moments when I believe it's all part of anxiety, all of my symptoms are gone so there might be something to it=)

Thanks.
 
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Tidal said:
Suzanne,

I think that has been the issue with me since this whole thing started. I refuse to believe that it's "only anxiety". I think it's some mental illness etc. Yet during those moments when I believe it's all part of anxiety, all of my symptoms are gone so there might be something to it=)

Thanks.
It's your "belief" system, you can tie yourself in knots.
This is when it's not good to LISTEN to other people.

Except, with Janine She's helpful, so Her words wont tangle you worse.

I think beliefs can be washed away in an instant if someone REALLY tries... You can untangle your head quite fast from a huge rush of white noise...
Belief is important, it's grounding. You can tell yourself ANYTHING really, use imagination. I am a hairbrush, I am anxious, I am hallucinating, I am not.real, these can be split into false and empty ideas with reassurance and integrity. I think it's dangerous to "listen" to people when you feel out of control, they wont take time to delicately untangle your head... and it's a problem.
We arn't taught to "listen" to ourselves in moments of crisis.
 
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