[HashimKhan1]

so I have really bad dp today, I feel like I'm losing it... I have had this for 3 months now and today is the worst Ive had it EVER. It feels as though I am trapped. I know where I am going but it doesn't feel normal even in my own home. Is this norrmal? I am so disconnected today. I fear that I have dementia but I know everything and have memory loss. I think the hardest thing is that I have forgotten how to feel normal. My brain feels as though its filled nothing. ad throughout the day feel as though this is not me. That I know everyone here but It doesn't feel right. uhhh is so hard to describe. I FEEL LIKE I"M GOING CRAZY. The questions in your head, who am i? where am I? what does it feel like to be normal? I was getting better 2 days ago and now this happened I dont get it, this is the worse dp and dr I have ever had. I fear the I might be getting dementia or VCJD disease because the night that i got dp and dr I had a burger from McDonalds. This CONFUSION IS KILLING ME. away i'm really down right now. If anyone has words of wisdom or has or is experiencing this PLEASE COMMENT!

 

[ktlee]

i have had these feelings. today i went home crying from work. i have had this for a good 6 years now and i still dont know what to do. people in this town are so hands off with treating these types of things. im so lost right now. i feel like im in a dream. my stomach is always in knots and i get terrible sleep. people that i normally see like my boyfriend and my dad or brother feel like strangers to me. i was having an ok day a couple of days ago and than went to work and bam. i felt like crap and it never went away. my boyfriend was like that doesnt sound like a panic attack and im like no it really doesnt because its a constant panic all day long. i feel really weird at my own house to but its a lil easier to deal with. when im at work im around people and stress ful stuff that it makes it more difficult or when im out in public. i really dont know what to do anymore. im so lost. this site helps a lil but i feel like im going crazy. is it something else that is wrong with me? i get headaches and stuff so is it something in my head? this sucks

 

[Jewells]

I feel your pain and suffering I feel that way as well that my family feel like strangers what hurts the most is that a person can be so disconnected from the ones they love the most that is what I am having a hardest time with fighting the fact that they arnt strangers they are my family. Hang in there..

 

[daydreambeliever]

Do you work under florescent lights? A lot of classes are also under them. They creep me out for days.

 

[ph10]

Just let it go man.

I know exactly how it feels to have an incredibly severe episode. But an episode like that never lasts very long. Just try to calm yourself and know that it'll go away, at least somewhat. Enough.

Relax and it'll get better. I know how bad it gets but it'll improve.

 

[xxmdogxx]

forgetting what it feels like to be normal is one of the worst symptoms but it does go away and you have to say to yourself no matter in way way and how slowly I am getting better I am moving the right direction.

 

[fresko123]

The same thing happened to me. I felt like I was getting better, had some hope. Then one night it all came back much worse than before. I feel like my brain is turning into mush. I don't even try to remember things that happened the previous day anymore, it just stresses me out that I have such a hard time remembering. Also, I get really panicky at work. I work under florescent lighting, but there's nothing I can do about it. I have to work to pay bills, so I have to go. I've also forgotten what it feels like to be normal :-( I'm trying to just go with the flow and accept this, but it's a lot easier said than done.

 

[eiji850]

i feel your pain brother its hard i am also like this but i also get crazy dizzyness and feel off balance this coming from a guy who used to have really good balance and was always healthy its your body and mind that are just tired . Try and get some sleep and eat good whole foods cook if you can also take vitamins and try and get out and walk even if it feels bad sometimes getting fresh air can wake you up as well . i have had this for 2.5 years will be 3 years this april and i have to tell you that at first i felt like i was dying but last year i started noticing improvements in my mood and balance it can take a while before you feel like yourself again but it will happen trust in yourself .

 

[fsbeats17]

what is going on.... every where i go i see manipulation, i woke up this morning and it was really bad. i see lies... i feel as if everyone has been implanted with a chip minus me... i can see right through these people and their lies....

to be honest I'm scared, and just keep asking my self why i see and see and see, and others don't... wtf!!

any words of advice would be great...

 

[cmoonbeam1]

I'm new and I completely feel your pain. It is really important to me that I and you are not alone. What you're going through is just like what I am going through. I often feel like I'm dying inside or that I'm already dead. Some days emotions get through and it is such a gift. I have really bad memory loss too and sometimes I mix up my words, or a word I'm trying to say is replaced by another totally unrelated word so it's like I'm speaking gibberish almost. It makes me feel like I have dementia too. I am so confused too. My thoughts are so disorganized... I guess it's because they are dissociated and compartmentalized, for my own protection I guess.

I try to remember my good days. This has to end sometime. I want it to end so bad that I am certain it will.