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As an anthropology student, I guess I have a propensity to be fascinated by fellow researchers in the field, but I think that this description of a mental state (although written by an anthropologist) describes DP/DR in a way:

?In this setting, one strolls, waiting for the miracle like pilgrims wait for the epiphany, and almost everything measures itself on the yardstick of solitude. Solitude that lends itself to every variety of onanism, since it nourishes itself on memory alone, which offers it endless nooks and crannies for further growth. In this rumination, depressions are beaches, halts, attacks of fatigue. The real vanishes. And weariness, especially in the beginning, when the effort to overcome despondence at the sight of the beggar?s bag-empty, or filled with writings-fails. Attraction to these savages, finally, is shaped by repulsion and liberated in sleep?. Remo Guidieri

So why did I post it? Probably because I've become a devout follower of the Janine School of Thought, lol, of turning outwards and onward as opposed to ruminating in solitude with my own thoughts on thoughts themselves ....

Also, I have to say that I tried distracting myself last week and not giving in to DP/DR and I had quite a peaceful week for a change. It might all revert back to my sever panic, trying to check myself into mental hospitals soon, lol, but at least I had a good couple of days.

I truly do believe that whether this was caused by anxiety or depression (as I noticed some posts discussed), it's not the point. Maybe it's more significant for us to try to see why we were depressed/anxious in the first place. I have a feeling that for some of us, we had some personal issues for a while... they just accumulated and one day culminated in DP/DR.
 
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I have a feeling that for some of us, we had some personal issues for a while... they just accumulated and one day culminated in DP/DR.
So what are your issues?
 
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Well without getting into specifics, about a month or two before my cannabis-induced DP/DR started I experienced severe depression as a result of ending a relationship that was doomed from the beginning, of me realizing that I never accepted myself, of feeling lost and unsure of what I wanted to do with my life... of feeling like I succeeded so much professionally and academically and on the outside my life appeared perfect but I was lonely and felt fake on the inside... just a bunch of stuff... never being able to say no, being too passive etc. etc. etc.

I'm not saying that everyone here can relate to me but I've met a few people who recovered from DP/DR as soon as they accepted and it and didn't fear it and.... then made positive changes in their lives....
 
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Also... this is common sense and I know that Kari posted about this before (this girl helped me soooo much that I might just as well re-state her posts,lol) but I DO think that attitude is crucial in recovery here.

You know, Dr. Weekes says in her book to feel courage in the pit of your stomach and not as a dettached thought in your mind... that you should truly truly want recovery soooo badly and work on it so hard that giving up just won't be an option. I think as soon as I started telling myself "this is just anxiety" and that I am ok, things started changing for me.

As I said, it's common sense, but I'm bored at work and thought I'll post this anyway=)
 
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I'm on this constant personal quest to totally externalize my thoughts and lifestyle (i'm an anthropology major too) and I have these dreams of just drifting into the void around the world. My plan at this point is to join the peace corps after I graduate and go to some random farflung place, hopefully somewhere within my expertise (former Soviet Republics).

Its strange, I don't want to go Fiji, Hawaii....I hate Florida and California. I had the option of going to Veracruz this winter break but i decided to go to Montreal/Quebec City instead. Something has cracked inside of my head, because that does not make sense. Look at the Chewbacca. It has nothing to do with this case. Why am I showing you a picture of Chewbacca? That does not make sense. I rest my case.
 
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ZiggomatiX,

I've been to the former Soviet Republic many many times, during and post Communist times so we can talk about it once if you want.

I don't care whether or not I have DP/DR next June. I'm going back to India and Tibet to continue my research there!
 
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The closest i've been to eastern europe, the caucasians, and central asia is through books the lonely planet tv series. I'd love to hear about what its like, you don't need to spare me the poverty, decay, whatever because I don't care and I didn't become an anthropology major so I could study cultures from a cruise ship having my ass massaged.
 
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