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I hope I'm not the only one with the worst anger issues ever.
I get angry at everything and anything.
If someone tells me they love me I get pissed off, if someone tells me they hate me I get pissed off.

I'm angry all the time at everyone and everything for even existing.
I literally wait for people to start arguments with me just so I can get into fights. I find myself praying for someone to start some ridiculous argument just so I can punch and get punched.

One time I almost wacked my sister across the head with a pear jar, but someone else got in the way.
I vandalize.
Destroying things and exercising till I think I'm gonna vomit is how I mostly handle my rage.

It's even more annoying when majority of your other emotions are so suppressed.

So the feeling of anger is intense. Sometimes I have rage attacks and everything becomes a blur.

My thoughts are always on some form of violence for some reason.
I have dark disturbing thoughts all the time, it gets harder to think of myself as a good person.
Every part of me is aggressive and screaming but on the outside I remain so neutral because everything on the outside isn't real, I'm like a wolf in sheep's clothing.

I scare myself more than I'd like to admit.

My dp makes me a monster, I don't see people as people or the world as the world. It seems like its all just a playground and people are just I don't even know.
I hold grudges, and take revenge to a whole other level.

I just want to burn the world and make dolphins extinct sometimes.

Oh well.

 

[Thisisnotlife]

im excactly like you!!!
here is only anger or maybe more like frustration inside of me.
i feel jealous and like wishing bad to everyone.

 

[nicewon]

no your def not alone i was a angry person before i got dp its probably the reason this happened to me

 

[Pondererer]

I'm like a wolf in sheep's clothing.

I scare myself more than I'd like to admit.

My dp makes me a monster, I don't see people as people or the world as the world. It seems like its all just a playground and people are just I don't even know.

I relate to that. I'm like this AI robot walking around judging people by their incredible naive and stupidity.

 

[eddy1886]

Are you familiar with Borderline Personality Disorder...Maybe do a google search?

 

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Are you familiar with Borderline Personality Disorder...Maybe do a google search?

Honestly I wouldn't be the tad bit surprised if I had it.

 

[thanksforbeingalive]

Rage is not related to DP, people with DP could not express rage, it is strong emotion.

 

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Rage is not related to DP, people with DP could not express rage, it is strong emotion.

Huh really? I guess it's just a mixture of alot of things then. DP is different for everyone I suppose.

 

[Chicane]

I'm like this to some degree, but more in terms of everyday snapping at people/general frustration. I have a very short fuse and go off on people all the time. I always catch myself doing it halfway through my rants too, and then I think "just chill the fuck out" but it's always something I really have to force. DP has made me kind of "life tired" I think. If every day is an irritating struggle then I think it makes sense that we're always sort of worn down and ready to blow up.

 

[thanksforbeingalive]

Huh really? I guess it's just a mixture of alot of things then. DP is different for everyone I suppose.

When you feel rage, do you feel it through your body? Do you feel that is YOU feel this emotion?

 

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When you feel rage, do you feel it through your body? Do you feel that is YOU feel this emotion?

Nope and I think that's the worst part about it

 

[Thisisnotlife]

im so like this too... something just is angry.. but its not really me. im just watching this some part which is sufferring. but i cant do anything about it. im confused.. all this mind process.. these thoughts and everything just makes this all impossible. im frustrated. over and over again im here. and im losing hope... i cant anymore try

 

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im so like this too... something just is angry.. but its not really me. im just watching this some part which is sufferring. but i cant do anything about it. im confused.. all this mind process.. these thoughts and everything just makes this all impossible. im frustrated. over and over again im here. and im losing hope... i cant anymore try

Yeah this is exactly how it is, and its confusing and complicated which just makes it all the more annoying.
Don't lose hope.
"We must accept finite disappointment, but never lose infinite hope."