Just hang in there man. It sounds like you have been through a HELL of alot in your life. But, from your website link you sent, I can tell you have a TON of talent. Just lose the drink man.....it's not worth it. Especially if you become destructive when you drink. It's just a temporary fix. Unfortunently, I am trying to stay clean from alcohol as well.
Just stay strong man. Peace.
Kelson
Just stay strong man. Peace.
Kelson