I wanted to drop by here and give some words of advise so that people can start their recovery journey from today and not suffer even one more day pointlessly.
I am going to keep it short this time since I am quite busy nowadays and also I am not fully fully out yet.
I got dissociated some 18 months back after being in chronic stress( self + work induced as I work in Investment banking) followed by a very intense vertigo that totally disoriented me. The debilitating symptoms developed gradually in a day and got stuck for a long time, which seemed like forever. Living days totally dissociated further is traumatic enough to keep the primitive part of the brain stuck in the dissociative state. I got little help reading posts here since majority of them are around 'live your life', 'accept' which is BS mostly.
You, just like me have physical changes in the brain, in Insula( sense of self and body ), Hippocampus( time keeping and memories ), frontal lobe( emotional regulation ) and many more which needs proper psychological treatment. Infact, the treatment is readily available.
I started 2 therapies some 2.5 months back and they have worked like wonders:
1. Psychoanalysis for Dissociation - This allowed me to regain positive sensations in my body, in other words merging body and mind.
2. EMDR: I started this one only 1 month back, after being confident that my dissociation is negligible.This therapy helped in resolving the trauma caused by the long term dissociation and sudden change in life.
As of now I don't feel dissociated at all through out the day. The stress and emotions regulation is still not perfect as the brain is still sensitive. However, I am positive that in some more time I will be back to normal. Infact, I have felt phenomenal for many moments recently.
I urge everyone to really look for help and not just 'live'.
Once I am fully out, I will surely write my entire journey here.
TIP: The break in timeline/old memories seem very old and new seem I never lived etc etc are all hippocampus issues majorly and will go away as you recover. It's fascinating to see the symptoms evaporate in front of your eyes gradually.
All the best.