Karine,
We all understand how horrific this is for you, but you must try and start working to get yourself out of this obsessional cycle. You must listen to what Janine is saying and ACT. Now ! That's an order.
I'm not saying you aren't trying, but by reading your posts it seems that you are so completely overwhealmed by your symptoms that it is preventing you trying to change your frame of mind. Nobody can do this apart from you.
We all understand how horrific this is for you, but you must try and start working to get yourself out of this obsessional cycle. You must listen to what Janine is saying and ACT. Now ! That's an order.
I'm not saying you aren't trying, but by reading your posts it seems that you are so completely overwhealmed by your symptoms that it is preventing you trying to change your frame of mind. Nobody can do this apart from you.