You've made this same thread countless times. It's clearly not helping or productive as the loop keeps going. I could reply to this one as well, but I don't see the point as it's all been done before with you at great length, more than once.
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/100298-depression-and-existential-thoughts/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/100228-solipsism-and-depression/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/97756-questioning-my-own-existence/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99802-my-fight-with-existential-and-solipsism-ocd/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99752-im-hallucinating-this/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99518-i-dont-exist/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99334-feeling-of-non-existence/
And that's just a few of them!
Do you see how futile this is? You're literally repeating the same process over and over. You should try to find another way to cope with this because this doesn't help you.
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/100298-depression-and-existential-thoughts/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/100228-solipsism-and-depression/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/97756-questioning-my-own-existence/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99802-my-fight-with-existential-and-solipsism-ocd/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99752-im-hallucinating-this/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99518-i-dont-exist/
https://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/99334-feeling-of-non-existence/
And that's just a few of them!
Do you see how futile this is? You're literally repeating the same process over and over. You should try to find another way to cope with this because this doesn't help you.