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Some people on this board seem to talk about DP/DR as if it goes away and comes back. As if you are normal and then it just flares up. I'm worried because mine isn't like that. I feel mildly Dr'ed all the time and THEN it flares up. There's no normality for me. Sometimes it's just more tolerable. Does anyone else feel like me? Do I have to have this for a long time to be considered one who has constant DP/DR?
 

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Forgive me as I'm still trying to remember everyone's personal stories here - and so I have to kind of ask question I would've hoped to know the answer to by now: but how long have you had DP?

I don't think there is any kind of standard DP "way" that exists - in that someone gets it bad, and then it goes away, and then gets it bad, etc. There may, very well, be someone who never has it really go away, just like there are some that never get it. I'm not an expert - obviously, and I don't proclaim to be - but it seems to me that trying to find a standard operating procedure for the disorder may be a bad thing to do.

One thing to ask yourself is how much have the conditions of your life changed over the time you've had the disorder? If not much has changed - then maybe you need some change. If a lot has changed, maybe you should examine those things that have changed and see if they have done anything to make your life less stressful.

My personal experience with the disorder is that it can hit strong for a couple days, and then vanish - and I almost have completely forgotten about it (swept up in "the real"). And then, suddenly, I'll wake up one morning and the day is dreamy,floating, and distant. It's just the nature of the beast, I guess.
 

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Da'Burgh,

It cannot be emphasized enough how different we all are. For some, they only experience DP/DR every now and then. On the other extreme, some experience it all the time. I am like you in that I feel DP/DR'd all the time, some times being worse than others. If you have DP/DR all the time, then it is "constant" no matter how long you've had it for (as long as it's not an hour or two). Saying you've had DP/DR constantly for 2 weeks is fine. :wink:
 

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uni girl,

I believe we are in the same boat. By your link I assume yours was induced by drugs. Our DP/DR symptoms seem to be alike. But yes, I do feel it constantly. Thank you both for your posts. Please everyone don't hold back their experience either. This just helps us understand more, and that's the first step to recovering, I believe.
 

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Guys,

It's important for me to point out that I have, usually, a sh*tload of stuff going on in my life at any one time. I have computers, music, various excercise (like biking, martial arts, hiking, etc), art, writing, botany, darts, sometimes a girlfriend or two, and lots, and lots, and lots of other hobbies (sorry, ladies, I'm not saying that I treat girls like a hobby, but a fling relationship can be fun and relaxing - as long as its understood both ways I don't see the harm). It seems that if I'm not constantly chewing at these interests, then I WILL get the disorder 24/7 - and have, actually, never completed college due to the disorder (and the severe panic attacks I got alongside it). If I don't give my mind something to chew on, it chews on me - as stupid and goofy as that is to say, it's just damn true.

I believe that the degree of the disorder depends upon a couple of things - the conditions surrounding it biochemically, the stress and anxiety levels I may be having at the moment, and the degree by which I'm currently engaged in the world around me. Any one of those variables come lose, and suddenly I'm a victim again.

I have far from achieved Zen - I really would like to be able to sit and do NOTHING for a day and not feel zoned as a result, but perhaps that's just not something I can expect of myself. A strange fact that not a lot of people probably would guess but, I'm actually divorced which was, mostly, the result of these problems. She didn't understand (and, honestly, I cannot blame her as a "normal person".

Alcohol gives me that Zen effect (relaxation without mental taxation), and I'm constantly watching myself so I don't dip too deeply into it (especially given my past). But Johnny Walker can be quite the good friend now and then.
 
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