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Hi

I'm making this post because this morning I have realised something very important. I have just realised that I suffer immensely from Pure O and OCD. I have had OCD/Pure O since being a young child, having very distressing and uncharacteristic thoughts that I could never control, and on some occasions I would open up to my family about them but the issue would be dispelled as nonsense or trivial. As a result, I think I've always looked at OCD as a nonsense disorder, exacerbated by the sufferer to seek attention and feel important. My thoughts and urges of drowning myself as a child were made out to be just that so I always brushed it off as nothing.

Then DP/DR hit me almost 5 years ago due to a traumatic drug trip. I soon discovered what it was, and this quelled some of my fears and I made some advancements, feeling slightly better. But I could never quite get rid of it all. No matter how hard I tried the thoughts would not go, and I would continue to obsess over them, no matter what. They seemed ingrained in me and they still do.

I have bad OCD and Pure O I have now just realised, 5 years later. My thoughts and my actions tick all the boxes and I think I've always known to a degree that this was the issue. The intrusive thoughts have been the bane of my life for the longest time. I can deal with the feelings to a degree - you feel them, allow them, then they hopefully fade. But the intrusive thoughts, I just can't manage. They eat me alive.

Now I realise this. I have OCD and Pure O. This is my main issue and I guess its what I must "cure" before anything else.

SO MAYBE YOU TOO HAVE OCD/PURE O. IT IS AWFUL. I REALLY HOPE THIS HELPS YOU GOOD PEOPLE.
 
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