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·so i'm relieved to have found this website. did it even exist not too long ago? i remember searching desperately for something after having read up on the disorder and being floored by it and wanting to learn more. It is me.
i'm not too sure where exactly to start with this. i kinda just need some insight i suppose. for starters i feel for it from other people. my insides feel like i'm jumping up and down screaming "love me love me, please" and that's just one part of it. i don't know what's happening or how i am confused. everything i say is jargon and i can't articulate myself at all. however, my thoughts have thoughts, who have thoughts. there is too much going on up there and i'm sooo young, a mere 18. it's ridiculous. i can't focus, i have no interest in anything, i feel like i'm not here... if i feel at all. i am numb from nothing. and, i'm constantly running out of time and what for? i don't know. i just am always watching the clock waiting like i have to be doing something. i just don't feel real. the only reason i haven't done myself in is because i don't handle things that are too physical that well. i'm just very confused and i didn't bother pointing out where i relate to all those little knick knacks and quirks of depersonalization because i'd feel really redundant doing that. sorry if you can't bare with my grammar but i'm a muddle. i basically want someone to tell me what to do with myself. any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. i'm not functioning beyond the surface and i can't compensate for much longer.
i'm not too sure where exactly to start with this. i kinda just need some insight i suppose. for starters i feel for it from other people. my insides feel like i'm jumping up and down screaming "love me love me, please" and that's just one part of it. i don't know what's happening or how i am confused. everything i say is jargon and i can't articulate myself at all. however, my thoughts have thoughts, who have thoughts. there is too much going on up there and i'm sooo young, a mere 18. it's ridiculous. i can't focus, i have no interest in anything, i feel like i'm not here... if i feel at all. i am numb from nothing. and, i'm constantly running out of time and what for? i don't know. i just am always watching the clock waiting like i have to be doing something. i just don't feel real. the only reason i haven't done myself in is because i don't handle things that are too physical that well. i'm just very confused and i didn't bother pointing out where i relate to all those little knick knacks and quirks of depersonalization because i'd feel really redundant doing that. sorry if you can't bare with my grammar but i'm a muddle. i basically want someone to tell me what to do with myself. any advice or suggestions would be greatly appreciated. i'm not functioning beyond the surface and i can't compensate for much longer.
