[Imagine]

Phoned my psychiatriast.

In about one hours time I will be picked up and takin to the psychiatrict hospital.

They have a bed there for me.

 

[widescreened]

The best of luck 2you.Hopefully when you are in you can grow an appetite for life again and end up wanting to rejoin life and living.Seeing and talking to other patients and specialists could also give you a vital perspective on the stage of your life your at and give you a boost in the right direction.

 

[M A R S]

Why? Why must you go?

 

[Sojourner]

It is a wise man who knows when to call for help. Godspeed!

 

[flowingly]

I'll keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I look forward to seeing you post here again, feeling better. I'm sorry you have to deal with this, it's hard. But stay strong.

 

[Imagine]

They dispatched me back home, after a few hours there, gave me Lorazepam.

I seriously feel none of this has even happened, nothing is real NOTHING.

 

[Imagine]

1mg of Lorazepam to be taken when needed.

15mg Chlordiazeproxide daily (morning).

 

[Imagine]

If these dont help I dunno whats going to happen to me.

I WILL slip from reality 100%. I WILL lose my mind.... as really... i already have.

 

[Imagine]

I dont understand things, my memory is awful.

I dont even feel it was me who just posted these posts.

This has to be something more than DP/DR?

 

[Monkeydust]

I was under the impression that you'd be staying there for a couple of weeks, rather than just popping in.

But perhaps this goes to the heart of the issue. If the Doctors didn't think you needed to stay - and people very often stay in psychiatric hospitals for things other than psychosis - then that shows that they genuinely didn't think your symptoms were that worrying.

I am not saying that you aren't in a terrible way right now, you clearly feel awful and are having terrible symptoms, but you have not lost your mind, you will not lose your mind, and you will not slip from reality.

You really have to realize this, and believe it, if you want to make steps towards a recovery. There is no other way. It's these thoughts that fuel the symptoms.

Hope it starts improving in time,
MonkeyD

 

[Dreamland]

Lorazepam rocks...!!!! I've taken it like six times before bed times about two years ago. I calms you down and is by far the best benzo out there. Try to use it only on an as needed basis......it can be addictive.

 

[Imagine]

I was to stay in, but the psych. felt it would be better at home as a new environment would probably make me worse.

Does anyone else feel this mind reset thing.

Like its like u havent done what u have just done.

 

[Imagine]

Even in a calm state I'm still suffering this.

There is no possible option to bring back my reality.

I can't even eat anything, one bite of something and I feel I'm gonna throw up.

I know I've said this a thousand times, but it feels as though none of this is actually happening.

Only escape is sleep, and well, I feel I don;t even know what that is.

 

[Imagine]

This is only getting worse... the end up has to be a complete slip from reality or a brain illness (dead).

 

[Rektchordz]

are u sure this is just dp?? cus it sounds badddddd... has something brought this on like alchol .. or the lack of it?(withdrawel) i didnt think dp could go to these levels without the help of pushing it with something.. ive felt unbearable dp a couple of times after extremly heavy drinking and if ur like that all the time then thats fucking harsh!! how the meds doing for u?

 

[Imagine]

I took Lorazepam about 2 hours ago.

I'm calm, that is it, the DP/DR is still there.

 

[Imagine]

I just can't find the words to describe the "not being here" feeling along with the feeling that I don't know what anything is and also the mind reset.

I personally don't think theres a comeback from these feelings and im not sure if they are just DP/DR.

Anyone else?

 

[bat]

in my first, and worst episode of dp, i really had died and was in inescapable terror. total awareness of non existence. physical death wasn't an option as i knew i would remain in that unbearable state. of course you can't eat. you just have to live through it second by bloody second.

you also need to know that the kind of intense state you're in can only last so long and then it starts to lift

 

[Imagine]

Do u feel you have forgotten who you are along with others around you, even objects?

 

[Da'Burgh]

I am not saying that you aren't in a terrible way right now, you clearly feel awful and are having terrible symptoms, but you have not lost your mind, you will not lose your mind, and you will not slip from reality.

You really have to realize this, and believe it, if you want to make steps towards a recovery. There is no other way. It's these thoughts that fuel the symptoms.

I second that, Imagine. Don't give it the thought. Don't feed the monster. You have to ignore it long enough to give it room to let up some. Then you can possibly get into therapy to tie loose ends. Please, try your hardest to STOP questioning. STOP worrying you will be mad or nuts or insane. You seem totally sane. The only thing I see is an anxious depersonalized person. You will pull through my man, you just have to believe you will.