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Recently, I've been having a lot of problems going to sleep. I hate it, because even when I have music or something it's like I get dread, because I think of death and dying and all that stuff. I just had a sweeping bout of anxiety come over me, and I'm even more afraid to go to bed now, becaseu I'm afraid of my thoughts. Also, I'm so incredibly lonely, I think if I had someone to sleep with, i would feel slightly better. Sigh...sorry I'm just ranting right now. I'm sick of this, i'm scared i'll never get out of it. I hope I'm not back to square one? I hope not...thank goodness I have therapy tomorrow. Just all in all i'm mostly scared that I'm going to stay in this, and never have a real connectedness. Another fun night <weary grin>.
 

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Maybe Janine can help with this, but I'm thinking, logically, that maybe the fact that I am uncovering traumas of my past is leading to the intensified dp/dr. I think maybe my brain is really struggling and fighting against realizing how profoundly my mom's drinking, and my dad's anger and my parents constant arguing has affected me. In a way I feel that if i accept all of this, i'm going to be a completely different person, and it's shocking for me. I realize I wont' be completely differnet, but it's a battle in my mind. On the sleep thing, however, I do think part of the problem is the fear of bad dreams that I have.
 

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You're going to be fine, peaceboy. Yes, the sleep thing is probably just what you think it is. Can you do something and postpone sleeping until your body is really what I like to call deliciously tired and sleep seems like the most attractive thing in the universe?

Don't worry -- you are going to be just fine. You're right about all that stuff coming up -- it's painful and we want to run from it, but that's not going to happen, is it?

You're going to make it, kiddo!! :lol:
 

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Recently, I've been having a lot of problems going to sleep. I just had a sweeping bout of anxiety come over me, and I'm even more afraid to go to bed now, becaseu I'm afraid of my thoughts. Also, I'm so incredibly lonely, I think if I had someone to sleep with, i would feel slightly better. Sigh...sorry I'm just ranting right now. I'm sick of this, i'm scared i'll never get out of it. I hope I'm not back to square one? I hope not...thank goodness I have therapy tomorrow. Just all in all i'm mostly scared that I'm going to stay in this, and never have a real connectedness. Another fun night <weary grin>.
I hear you on this and you have my 100% sympathy. As soon as I lay down to sleep, I am flooded with tears, I think part of the problem is it forcing you to think. You are alone, it's dark, quiet, and there is nothing to distract. It is by far my worst time of the day. I refuse to sleep until I am so tired, I will basically pass out. If you (or anyone) finds anything to help with this, please let me know, as I am struggling also. Hope your therapy went well.
 

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Maybe you should try listening to a self-help tape or CD at night. I have a Bernie Siegel one and it helps me relax a little. Claire Weekes(who wrote Hope and Help for your Nerves) made a tape too.
 

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When the anxiety is strong it doesn't matter if someone is next to you in bed or not, but I truly mean when the fear is really intense. At moderate levels I like it when my son sleeps next to me at night because he squishes his whole body next to me to feel more secure. It's cute.

Do you guys have a TV in your room? If you can't get to sleep turn on the TV at a low volume and set the timer to switch off in 30mins time. If your not asleep within that half hour, reset it for another half hour. Keep doing this until you fall asleep. Being distracted by TV is much better than lying in bed worrying about all the DP/DR stuff. I usually put in one ear phone and listen to talk back radio which keeps me distracted until I fall asleep. I also take one tablet of AVANZA which is a SSRI and it has the side affect of drowsiness which helps me drift off to sleep 95% of the time. My sleep is much better than it was 4 months ago. With little sleep the DR gets real strong with me.
 
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Try exercise. Work yourself hard, and you will probably have a much easier time sleeping at night.

Exercise will also foster endorphin production, which will help keep your mind off anxiety and worry.
 

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Last night I waited until I was dog tired, and then passed out, basically, with the lights still on. It's funny, because when I wake up, i just want to go back to bed. Never can make up my mind of what I want :roll:
 
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