Recently, I've been having a lot of problems going to sleep. I hate it, because even when I have music or something it's like I get dread, because I think of death and dying and all that stuff. I just had a sweeping bout of anxiety come over me, and I'm even more afraid to go to bed now, becaseu I'm afraid of my thoughts. Also, I'm so incredibly lonely, I think if I had someone to sleep with, i would feel slightly better. Sigh...sorry I'm just ranting right now. I'm sick of this, i'm scared i'll never get out of it. I hope I'm not back to square one? I hope not...thank goodness I have therapy tomorrow. Just all in all i'm mostly scared that I'm going to stay in this, and never have a real connectedness. Another fun night <weary grin>.