I have posted an average of one every other day or every 3rd day since July 12th. But just like my life my membership on this board is touch and go. I guess it is kinda reflective of real life; I don't get too close and nobody gets too close to me. Maybe I expect too much from myself and other people. I really am feeling sorry for myself though, like I always do when I post and no one replies, and very few even read. What is it that I do or say that makes me so invisible and so easy to forget or ignore..here and in real life? I know my intimacy quotient is not great, but do I just really give off a "don't talk to me" vibe? Am I obnoxious or not enough? Do I seem self absorbed or too interested? Do people think I am weird cause I am sober? Am I some old fart of 50 who doesn't fit in the age range well enough for people to feel comfortable? This is all just thinking outloud but I felt compelled to say it all. I guess they are really questions I already had about myself and just like when you have a therapist who just sits there and doesn't talk you get enough rope to hang yourself with? You fill up the space against the silent backdrop, and ask or say things that are really on your mind. Enough self obsession for the time being. The Bengals won today and I look forward to being home from the hospital Saturday nite watching Game One of the World Series..White Sox --vs---don't know yet. I wish it already was Saturday.