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I think I killed the previous post on masturbation and dp, in an attempt to introduce some levity.

Sorry about that. I didn't intend to be insensitive or hurtful. I did view several TEDx talks on

YouTube with the subject of Porn addiction. I also researched several medical health sites on

the subject. What I found made me realize that there is a correlation with guilt, shame, pleasure

seeking, fear, secrecy, anxiety, depression, and addiction. From my own experience, this stuff can get pathological

fairly early in life. It can revolve around alcohol, drugs, sex, or just about anything that has the

potential to be compulsive or addictive. The last version of the DSM did not include Porn as an

addiction, though it clearly meets all the prerequisites. Maybe that has something to do with Porn being

a larger economic engine than all other media combined. 25% of Internet searches are for Porn.

It is accessible, anonymous, and affordable.

That's a powerful combination that estimates 70% of men, and 60% of women are

routinely viewing porn. Like other addictions, porn rewires the pleasure circuitry of the brain, resulting

in biological changes to the brain. Studies show that Porn desensitizes men to sexual stimuli, and sensitizes women.

Health experts allow there may be a limited role for Porn in a "normal" sex life, but moderation is the key.

Moderation is a difficult level to maintain when an addictive personality meets an addictive or

compulsive behavior. If guilt is an issue, downloaded the TOR browser or use a VPN (virtual private

network). They will protect your anonymity and privacy. You don't need legal problems in addition to your compulsion.
 

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@Forestx5, I deleted your post on the previous thread for the reasons you stated here, lol, but I think it is very cool of you to come back and explain, instead of dropping the subject altogether. And you also offered an interesting content here, so the gain is double, I'd say:)

I would like to take some responsibility for killing that thread too, as I reacted to one thing (masturbation as such), and then it turned out to be something else (porn addiction).

Anyway, thanks for starting this new thread on another important subject.

Cheers!

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Thanks for your post. In following up on this subject, I learned something about neurotransmitters. Chemistry was not my best subject, so I normally don't try to

understand things at that level. But I'm going to include a cartoon YouTube video which explained something to me in those terms. By now, everyone knows (lol)

I had a powerful temporal lobe seizure at 17, went through a two week period of post ictal psychosis, and an episode of major depression which lasted about 6 months.

Those episodes would then became recurrent throughout my life on intervals of 8 or 10 years.

During the 2 week period I would identify as the post ictal psychosis period, I had no libido whatsoever. By the age of 17, I was a virile young man and I masturbated

normally. Maybe more than normally. During that 2 week period,my insomnia was severe, and I did not sleep. My nights were so filled with horrible anxiety, that I attempted to arouse myself

sexually to distract from that anxiety. I had absolutely zero sexual response from those attempts. When I began to recover from the 6 months of severe depression, I

began to acquire a semblance of emotions again, and also some libido returned. However, I do not feel I ever regained all of the libido I lost in that initial seizure.

From the following video, I can presume my dopamine levels were very low. I can't find much information on the subject of epileptic discharges. I think I had about 30 of them

during my initial seizure. My brain was arcing and sparking on intervals of 5 seconds. Anyway, if anyone is experiencing ED, the first thing a physician is going to ask is

"how much porn and masturbation are you doing?". Anyway, pay attention to the rats in the video. They suffered for us.
 

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I feel strange posting about it on here. But more or less this is what's going on with me. I never saw it as an addiction because of frequency and time spent, but I can see how it is. I am seeing a psychologist because my life is a wreck. Panic disorder runs in my family and i'm highly sensitive and hard on myself etc... and my psychiatrist thinks (and it makes total sense) that i'm reliving trauma from a relationship years ago. And there was trauma from my childhood it ties to. I was exposed to things early on. There are details about it all but basically nobody watching out in a broken home and seeing porn which had an affect on me.

It kinda created 2 people where one was this porn thing. I mean i'm not alone in this. I know people , and i'm sure a lot are. A friend was an asshole until he came out with his dom/sub kink and just owned it. For me I just kept it its thing but now its like the 2 people have merged and i'm in a huge crisis. I had panic attacks and all I can think of is feeling like i'm a piece of shit. I just go over stuff in my head over and over. I can't focus. I was doing fine and now I can't sleep and ruminate. Intrusive thoughts and all the things you guys already know about.

I don't know what to do. I stopped watching. I've talked with some people about it to different degrees. I haven't talked to my ex.

I've done loads of research and talked to some people and I know I should let it go and move on. But that is easier said.

Any help is appreciated.
 

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I didn't really associate it in general with DP/DR. But the anxiety or shame or whatever would be it.

According to my family though its genetic and basically you can fall in to it being overwhelmed. So like a relative can have all this stuff from other factors and getting out of it is sorta similar. (obviously not 100% sure on this stuff but just what I know)
 
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