Point of no return.

3212 Views 20 Replies 6 Participants Last post by bright23, Jul 19, 2005

Imagine

Discussion Starter · Jul 18, 2005

I'm gonna die because of this, right now I feel i dont know who the hell iam how the hell i know this forum, what the hell is a forum, what the hell is the internet, who the hell am i?

My voice - slurred speach.... these are not my words im thinking this is not me talking.

Blacking out feeling - not knowing how i got from one place to another.

Feels like my mind is slowly shutting down.... cant feel my own weight, feel light, hollow.

This post is just a complete ramble but i dont know how to put it.... i even shed a few tears earlier... just let me die let me whispering to myself.

my memory... feels completely lost.

Im becoming dumbified if there is such a word... soon i will be a lifeless living piece of meat.... sitting there... trapped inside my brain not knowing who or what iam, what words are, what their meanings are.

cant take this.

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· #3 · Jul 18, 2005

I feel sorry for you. I can't say I've felt that bad recently, only during my worst episodes. However, I can empathize. Of course if you feel as if you're going to hurt yourself, either directly or indirectly, you should seek some help. Check into a hospital, stay at a friends or family member's house. Do whatever you have to do to get yourself support until you feel relatively "stable." I think some fast acting medication should certainly be considered.

I hope you feel better. Continue to post you're feelings if you need to, try to stay connected as long as possible. Ride it out in whatever way is possible.

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· #10 · Jul 19, 2005

I am promising you that NOTHING has actually happened TO your brain. your cognitive abilities are fine.

I'd have to disagree with that completely. I'm no expert but recent studies have shown that high levels of stress, or extreme anxiety or depression can cause brain damage. If not permanent, then temporarily a persons cognitive abilities can be impaired because of thoughts that are causing physical changes in a person's body.

I don't want to be a contrarian. I just think its kind of misleading to tell people that their body or brain is not being effected or damaged by their emotional states. Perhaps ignorance is bliss.

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· #15 · Jul 19, 2005

http://www.fi.edu/brain/stress.htm

http://mednewsarchive.wustl.edu/medadmi ... 710072479A

http://my.webmd.com/content/article/106/108114.htm

The idea that major depression untreated will simply go away seems a bit ridiculous. It will go away and come back and go away and come back. People seem to relapse frequently and it seems to me that it is the COMBINED effect of these depressive episodes, as well as anxiety attacks, or breakdowns that will do damage. Just because you have a hard time thinking now does not mean that you have already caused permanent brain damage. But your brain is constantly changing, and the cumulative effect of these negative experiences are deleterious to your health. Even if it is a very gradual process.

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· #18 · Jul 19, 2005

I thought about that. I'm sorry I posted about it, its not helpful, its scary. Scares the shit out of me anyway. The point of the post was to help someone in need, I just had a sort of knee-jerk reaction when I read it. Fighting a problem with a potentially false idea bothered me.

So I'll rephrase in a less ominous way. I believe and some have found that anxiety/depression/stress can cause negative changes in the body. However this also works both ways. By thinking positively and treating your body right, I believe that emotions can be stabilized. We are all capable of making a recovery. Whether that recovery is 100% or not doesn't make a difference. We can get to place that is dramatically better than where we are or have been.

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