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Well i'm gonna write how i feel and all my symptomps, if somebody relates, or have been through that, please tell me i really need it.

So, first when i developed dp (im self-diagnosed), i was freaking out, myself would look strange in the mirror, the world wouldn't look real, and that's it. After 6 months i thought i was cured completely, the world was looking real, i was happy again etc. But thats when my real suffering begins, i experience a big panic attack( at least thats what i think it was) and i fall back into this black hole, but this time its different, i have this constant head pressure, an off balance feeling and dizzines (those are the most disturning ones), muscle twitching etc. Well that summer went by and all those feelings stopped. During the autumn, winter and spring my dp was somewhat managable without them physical symptomps. Then summer came back, so do all the physical symptomps. Right now im going through this, as an hypochondriac i think the worst case scenario, the symptomps are waaaaaaay worse at night.
The world also feels different to me, kinda scary, especially at night, and my dp feel like goes through stages, like two or three days ago it felt different than it is righ now, and in two or three next days it will feel different( i wanna know if somebody else felt this), i really need hope cuz i think im getting worse and worse everyday. Also i have a constant fast heart beat. Sorry for my bad english, its not my native language.
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I have absolutely mostly everything you describe, sometimes it feels like the stars align and some other person is experiencing exactly what I am.

My whole DP thing started off as a sleepless night, and symptoms such as loss of balance and muscle twitching persisted for a few months, after going to the doctor, getting bloods done, ect... They said they don't know, after that it subsided quite drastically. But again recently after about 5+ months of feeling generally normal it has came back - the feeling off balance all the time, terrible fatigue and twitching, say my finger or leg will randomly move without me even doing it - and of course the constant DP.

Whatever you have it seems like I have it too, I've been on SSRI's since I was 15 (now 18), don't know if its related. But thank you for this post.

- also that pulse thing that happens when you stand up happens to me too, my heart will race super fast when I stand up.
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Did your symptomps dissapear again, or now they are constant? It feels good to know that im not the only one exeperiencing this.
The first time I had this it lasted like a 2 or 3 months, so at this time I don't know if its constant. I'll give it more time to see if it'll go again. Good luck update us later with any news.
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