[Diego]

Okay, thanks. It just so difficult. Like when you stop paying attention you'll slip away or something. Yet I know it's the opposite. Stupid thoughts, stupid condition. Sorry...

Exactly! It looks like that our brain get used to this mental state and don't wants to go to the normal anymore

 

[WorryGirl]

Exactly! It looks like that our brain get used to this mental state and don't wants to go to the normal anymore

I know, right? I wish you all the best! I hope you'll recover!!

 

[Dragoon909]

You're not alone.
I feel this way most of the time.
I was getting some better, and then I got covid.
My anxiety was through the rough the last few days.

I understand what you mean: don't know what's going on anymore. I feel the same. Every day is a day that passes in a fog.
My memory is meh: I recall days pretty well, but I definitely have to think about it.

I wasn't like any of this until the dr and dp came along.
I miss my old self so much.

As bad as I hate to, I may have to try some medications.
I just don't know what to try....

MY BRAIN feels like mush...total flatline waves.
And no, I do not recognize myself in the mirror anymore. It's like I'm just here.
It's not living! Only existing.

 

[WorryGirl]

You're not alone.
I feel this way most of the time.
I was getting some better, and then I got covid.
My anxiety was through the rough the last few days.

I understand what you mean: don't know what's going on anymore. I feel the same. Every day is a day that passes in a fog.
My memory is meh: I recall days pretty well, but I definitely have to think about it.

I wasn't like any of this until the dr and dp came along.
I miss my old self so much.

As bad as I hate to, I may have to try some medications.
I just don't know what to try....

MY BRAIN feels like mush...total flatline waves.
And no, I do not recognize myself in the mirror anymore. It's like I'm just here.
It's not living! Only existing.

Oh no, I'm so sorry. I hope you'll get better from Covid soon and your dpdr will get less again... I can recall flashes during the day, when I try really hard. But don't ask me on which day of the week something happened. When my husband tells me about something, I can recall better. The absence of emotions makes it suck (pardon my French) even more... I zone out so much during the day. And worrying about it, makes it worse.
Then I get headaches/ pressure and my head gets really warm. Only my head. Not fever, or anything.

When you want to try medication, please be careful. Benzos may help against anxiety, but you get used to them really quickly and tapering off can be very difficult. (Can make dpdr symptoms worse!) Maybe antidepressants? I'm on them too. Don't expect to much of them, though.

I wish you all the best. I hope you recover.

 

[NoDevils]

Question, how do you 'have fun' without emotions? Do they come back after you accept dpdr?

You and I both have emotions all of the time. Sometimes emotions become blunted or we become out of touch with our emotions, anhedonic laughter for example. Depression, anxiety, and stress can also blunt emotions and make us feel happy or sad at unusual things.

 

[WorryGirl]

You and I both have emotions all of the time. Sometimes emotions become blunted or we become out of touch with our emotions, anhedonic laughter for example. Depression, anxiety, and stress can also blunt emotions and make us feel happy or sad at unusual things.

So they'll probably return when things 'calm down' so to say. Or I'll notice them again, rather.

 

[NoDevils]

So they'll probably return when things 'calm down' so to say. Or I'll notice them again, rather.

Some combination of the two. I wish I could promise things will be exactly like before but life doesn't work like that.

Personally, my old life was very bad so I'll take the new one and try to make a better future.

 

[Dragoon909]

Oh no, I'm so sorry. I hope you'll get better from Covid soon and your dpdr will get less again... I can recall flashes during the day, when I try really hard. But don't ask me on which day of the week something happened. When my husband tells me about something, I can recall better. The absence of emotions makes it suck (pardon my French) even more... I zone out so much during the day. And worrying about it, makes it worse.
Then I get headaches/ pressure and my head gets really warm. Only my head. Not fever, or anything.

When you want to try medication, please be careful. Benzos may help against anxiety, but you get used to them really quickly and tapering off can be very difficult. (Can make dpdr symptoms worse!) Maybe antidepressants? I'm on them too. Don't expect to much of them, though.

I wish you all the best. I hope you recover.

Hey worrygirl,

I was on klonopin for a while. I had to come off of it years ago.
I have tried oodles of ADs and none worked.

So. Idk...

Did the benzo and AD make your dr and dp worse?

 

[Rishikesh Mishra]

I'm not even sure if I have dpdr anymore... I have no emotions, my body seems far away, pupils dialated, can't recognize my reflection in the mirror. World looks weird. Memory is bad. So far, it fits.
But my intellect is crumbling...
I can't read, can't watch tv. And not because of 'racing thoughts' or thinking 'is this real?'. No, I don't inderstand what's going on anymore. I just don't get it. I can talk with others, but I don't understand what they're, or what I'm saying either. Others seem to notice nothing odd. It's like everything I do and say is automatic. Which has me thinking, if one day I don't notice anymore, no one will know. My body just goes on doing stuff and my brain gives programmed responses. But 'I' will be gone. Anybody felt like this? I'm scared, every day. I just remember 'flashes' of each day. I want to have a MRI and CT scan done. To see, if anything pops up. I just can't believe this is from anxiety anymore...

Except not recognizing myself in mirror, I have all symptoms as of you...... My psychiatrist is putting me on anti depressants only but it's not helping since 2 years...... I think nothing will pop out from MRI and CT scan because I have those done.... Nothing was abnormal in CT scan and MRI......

Apart, I had to ask something from you......
What you feel while reading and watching TV? Because the most delibitating symptoms I get is while reading, watching and listening to someone...... Plz reply mam

 

[WorryGirl]

Hey worrygirl,

I was on klonopin for a while. I had to come off of it years ago.
I have tried oodles of ADs and none worked.

So. Idk...

Did the benzo and AD make your dr and dp worse?

Benzos did nothing for me. AD withdrawal probably caused it... There are some drugs said to help/ relieve symptoms, but you should talk to a professional about it. Don't want to give you the wrong advice.

 

[WorryGirl]

Except not recognizing myself in mirror, I have all symptoms as of you...... My psychiatrist is putting me on anti depressants only but it's not helping since 2 years...... I think nothing will pop out from MRI and CT scan because I have those done.... Nothing was abnormal in CT scan and MRI......

Apart, I had to ask something from you......
What you feel while reading and watching TV? Because the most delibitating symptoms I get is while reading, watching and listening to someone...... Plz reply mam

I feel like I can't understand what's being said/done. I get the same feeling when doing everyday things. I know how to do things, I can answer people, but it seems automatic. I freak out sometimes when I hear something outside, but can't directly place the sound. Like rain. I have to think about it way too hard. Same with time on a clock, what does it mean? Still, I can get to stuff on time? It's weird and scary... I can type this, but I don't know how. I'm sorry you're also feeling this way.

 

[ameliaaria]

Okay, thanks. It just so difficult. Like when you stop paying attention you'll slip away or something. Yet I know it's the opposite. Stupid thoughts, stupid condition. Sorry...

It's understandable to have difficult thoughts and feelings. It's important to remember that you are not alone.

 

[WorryGirl]

It's understandable to have difficult thoughts and feelings. It's important to remember that you are not alone.

Thank you.

 

[ameliaaria]

I feel like I can't understand what's being said/done. I get the same feeling when doing everyday things. I know how to do things, I can answer people, but it seems automatic. I freak out sometimes when I hear something outside, but can't directly place the sound. Like rain. I have to think about it way too hard. Same with time on a clock, what does it mean? Still, I can get to stuff on time? It's weird and scary... I can type this, but I don't know how. I'm sorry you're also feeling this way.

This can be a symptom of various conditions such as PTSD, depression, or anxiety disorders. It's important to take care of yourself and practice self-care, such as getting enough sleep, eating well, and engaging in activities you enjoy.

 

[WorryGirl]

I'm trying. It's just hard to enjoy anything... Most days I force myself to go outside. Walking, riding my bike. Doing groceries. Picking my husband up from work... But without emotions. And I drift in and out of conscious. Missing parts of the day... I just can't stay in the present. And I can't eat. So I don't know what to do, really...😊

 

[Rishikesh Mishra]

I feel like I can't understand what's being said/done. I get the same feeling when doing everyday things. I know how to do things, I can answer people, but it seems automatic. I freak out sometimes when I hear something outside, but can't directly place the sound. Like rain. I have to think about it way too hard. Same with time on a clock, what does it mean? Still, I can get to stuff on time? It's weird and scary... I can type this, but I don't know how. I'm sorry you're also feeling this way.

Do you do this stuff too that while typing (ok) you automatically type (ko) or while typing (dp) you automatically type(pd)..... I can watch TV but can't understand what's going on in movie.... It seems like watching movie and getting it understood is a very big task for me...... While I'm college, paying attention to what's teacher is explaining is also a big task for me...... It feels like whatever he is saying is running into my mind like a story

 

[Rishikesh Mishra]

I

Do you do this stuff too that while typing (ok) you automatically type (ko) or while typing (dp) you automatically type(pd)..... I can watch TV but can't understand what's going on in movie.... It seems like watching movie and getting it understood is a very big task for me...... While I'm college, paying attention to what's teacher is explaining is also a big task for me...... It feels like whatever he is saying is running into my mind like a story

I get sleepy while listening to anyone for more than 1 min

 

[WorryGirl]

Do you do this stuff too that while typing (ok) you automatically type (ko) or while typing (dp) you automatically type(pd)..... I can watch TV but can't understand what's going on in movie.... It seems like watching movie and getting it understood is a very big task for me...... While I'm college, paying attention to what's teacher is explaining is also a big task for me...... It feels like whatever he is saying is running into my mind like a story

I don't think I do that...? Do you have dyslexia? I can't watch tv, don't understand what's going on. I just don't get things anymore. Everything's too fast and sort of meaningless ...

 

[WorryGirl]

I
I get sleepy while listening to anyone for more than 1 min

I don't get sleepy. Can't understand what they're saying.

 

[Phantasm]

She says that dissociation is a symptom that can't be treated. She doesn't understand what triggered it either. It started weeks after I tried to taper off antidepressants. First I had attacks with severe anxiety, shaking and loss of muscle control. Then two weeks of 'just' anxiety. And then my brain just went 'nope'. It's been like that for like two, three months. She doesn't have a clue what caused it or how to treat me. Just wait, she said, maybe it will stabilize on its own... She congratulated me on the fact that my OCD is gone since this thing came around... Thanks, appreciate it.😑

Wow, she said that? Something I think is damaging is when so-called experts say to patients that something cant be treated, putting the onus on the patient, rather than saying "I don't know." This is a very old doctor confidence trick, forged on the first principle that a patient must believe in his or her doctor. Fine, that has worked to some extent over history, but when they say something negative it can be devastating. To hear a doctor saying it cant be treated because they wont say they don't know how to treat it, is, well, I think it's shameful.

Even a basic therapist can find the origins of someone's symptoms just by asking them to tell their story. It's not always that complicated. It can start with, "I don't know what's wrong with me, I had a great childhood and have a good life, but..."

As for treatment, there are lots of therapies. Some people put DP in an isolated box as though it is untouchable, but I don't believe that. I think everything is connected and nothing is isolated, it just seems that way. An approach that may not seem significant can be just what we need.

Some use meds, like an AD and anti-psychotic, others use talk therapy, writing therapy, somatic therapy, CB therapy or mindfulness. There is no one-hit cure, but there are many ways, piece by piece, to get back to health.