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Please I need some help.....

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Ok I have had this bout of DP for 15 weeks now, due to the trauma and illness of my cat dying. What I do understand is why it is taking so long to come out of it. I am past the empty shell stage, but I still don't feel connected to my "real normal self", and I was thinking is the DP still trying to protect me from something, cos I am long over the death of my cat, but the DP still remains with me. I am having CBT with my therapist and we were talking how I will cope when one of my parents dies or the death of a friend. Could it be that the DP is trying to protect me from this before it has even happened?? My normal bouts of DP have lasted anything from 4 to 7 weeks, but this one is over 3 months long and I really don't know it isn't going? At the moment I feel nervous of who I am and have clammy hands and the longer this goes on I am beginning to think the DP will never go. How do I connect back to myself. Is this DP trying to protect me (against death of friends and family) which hasn't even happened yet. As my cat died, and the DP kicked in, it has decided to stay with me before something bad has even happened? I am just racking my brains as to why this DP hasn't gone yet. I am really scared it isn't going to go away this time????

Please help, advice, I am desperate.

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Person I think that the worst time for me was when I first got dp/dr.
I remember every second felt like an eternity. I think one hour with bad dp/dr is one hour to much, and it gives the right to sob and whine.

Mipmunk you do need to come to terms with the idea that you might have this illness for a very long time.

Just a little insight I have about you Mipmunk.
I might be wrong but you almost sound like deep down you actually enjoy feeling miserable.
I know, I know, I am out of line but think about it because I realy get the feeling that you enjoy feeling miserable.
Why do I get this impression :? ?
On the other hand though, Mipmunk, you do seem to be obsessed with your progress. You post very often. The point of getting rid of DP/DR is trying to stop checking in with how you feel and seeking reassurance. It's very hard to do, and yes I'm very glad you are getting better, but many of your posts almost seem exactly the same.
That is why I said that you enjoy feeling miserable. If you are improving why do you seem to be whinny. Be happy for your improvement :D .
You sound like you are doing better than many other people on here. :)

Keep up with the improvement.
Lay off the whinny postings.

P.S. It is a little offensive to here about someone that is improving but still complaining. If I wanted to I could fill this entire board with complaints about my horrible condition, but I try to stay positive.
When I here about how you are doing so much better than myself yet still you are actually complaining more than I am, I feel a little offended.
I understand why Person put up her post because I was wanting to write something similar myself.
Good advice Peacedove.
It is good to keep posting but it's not good to keep focusing on the bad thoughts.

Mipmunk I just think you are doing a lot better then you are letting yourself think you are doing. You seem to be makeing yourself miserable.
But then again, we are all makeing ourselfs feel miserable I guess.
Thats why were here.

I am starting to think I will do better to not come around here so much anymore myself. I like the support here but I find myself thinking about my dp/dr more often by being here.
I am going to try and stay off the computer as much as I can from now on and spend more time living my life.
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