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Please I need some help.....

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Ok I have had this bout of DP for 15 weeks now, due to the trauma and illness of my cat dying. What I do understand is why it is taking so long to come out of it. I am past the empty shell stage, but I still don't feel connected to my "real normal self", and I was thinking is the DP still trying to protect me from something, cos I am long over the death of my cat, but the DP still remains with me. I am having CBT with my therapist and we were talking how I will cope when one of my parents dies or the death of a friend. Could it be that the DP is trying to protect me from this before it has even happened?? My normal bouts of DP have lasted anything from 4 to 7 weeks, but this one is over 3 months long and I really don't know it isn't going? At the moment I feel nervous of who I am and have clammy hands and the longer this goes on I am beginning to think the DP will never go. How do I connect back to myself. Is this DP trying to protect me (against death of friends and family) which hasn't even happened yet. As my cat died, and the DP kicked in, it has decided to stay with me before something bad has even happened? I am just racking my brains as to why this DP hasn't gone yet. I am really scared it isn't going to go away this time????

Please help, advice, I am desperate.

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yes I while back I fell pregnant and that caused the DP to trigger off too. I think I felt overwhelmed that I couldn't cope with a baby and the DP triggered off, that was a couple of years ago now.

I feel a bit better today, but still not "hooray", I am sleeping but it is broken sleep and then I wake up about 6am and cannot get back to sleep. I have to eat as and when I can (when the anxiety isn't causing me bother).

I am just so tired with it all, yet I don't sleep properly, I wake up every couple of hours. I am fighting so hard and trying so hard to feel like me.

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I know there is a "me" somewhere inside that is happy and isn't anxious and is connected and where who am I doesn't bother me.....

Also this is really getting my husband down too, he is suffering I think, he was very quiet with me yesterday and didn't really say much to me, which then made me cry.
feel a bit better today, not 100% but slowly connecting.

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