[Guest]

I am asking for some insight. Do you ever feeling like you are not living in the moment literally? Do you find yourself reassuring yourself that I am actually here and not dreaming this? Do you ever have such intense flares of DP that you find yourself believing that you never actually exsisted? I feel like all I do is ever ask you guys for help and never really offer anything. Please be patient with me once I get past the initial panic, I am sure I will have a lot more to offer.

 

[Guest]

I don't conciously think that, but sometimes everything seems very surreal and dream like.

In a way it's like I don't understand perception...whats going through my head, or what should be going through my head... :? Weird stuff.

 

[Guest]

Yes often feel as if I'm in a dream or haven't woken up and actually got out of bed.
Often feel like I'm not really here.
I do know that I've existed for awhile,at my age it's hard to forget that one.

It's all part of the dp disorder.It is indeed shocking when it first happens and I don't know about others but dp never fails to spin me into fear,it's just too freaky for words.

We all come here with loads of questions ,its only natural.
At some point if you stay long enough you will have a turn around and offer support to other newbies.It seems to be the order of things around here.

All the best Shelly

 

[Guest]

Thanks Shelly. All I can say is that this sucks and I am scared and feel very alone. Your words of reassurance mean a lot even if they come half way around the world. Thanks again.

 

[Guest]

we all feel very alone. i get the feeling i can fade away into nothing. sitting in class today i had a dp attack and felt the whole world going on while i was trapped in my seat. but i knew that there were others like me and it gave me some comfort.

i wonder how many people suffering from dp/dr haven't heard of the disorder and think they are only one who feels that way? I was lucky, it only took me a month to find out.

 

[Guest]

No worries WhereamI,we can all be scared out of our wits together :shock:

You should have some better days ahead.
It appears that the early days are the worst if only for the reason that
it's all so hard to accept.
At first we ask "how can this be happening "which apparently are the sort of questions we are not supposed to ask.
IMO you'd have to be completely brain dead not to react to this bizarre condition.

I was slowly strolling along a lovely beach today,the wind was up,the surf a bit wild,the gulls screaming as they do yet what did I keep thinking"God I feel weird,I hate this crap"
Then I told myself to "shut up"negative thinking won't help,any amount of thinking won't help so focus outward on the beautiful surrounds.
Did it help?not much LOL I then went onto have a little arguement with myself.
Like one person was being the rational adult and the other was being the cynical brat.
Oh well I tried but apparently you are not supposed to try either,like with meditation LOL I can't win for trying.

Honestly there is a lot of sound advice here.

Sometimes dp seems so absurd even I can find a little humour in it.
It can feel like when somebody is talking about somebody and they say don't look now and naturally everyone turns their heads at the same time.................if you know what I mean?
That's sort of what it's like when you try to not pay attention to it.

Sorry I'm raving on
Cheers Shelly

 

[Isobel]

ive noticed when your not 'thinking about thinking', like if your watching television (concentrating on it though )or something i always get a flash of 'normal' like feelings or thioughts that i thougt had gone, come back

 

[Sunshine Spirit]

WhereamI, whereareyou? Sorry, I just couldn't resist! :lol:

You said you were half way around the world from Australia. Do you live in the UK? I've found that it doesn't matter where any of the members lives (I know they're tiny people who live inside my monitor, really! :wink: ), because the help I've received on this forum has helped me to 95% recover from DP/DR.

I have experienced all you've mentioned, with one exception: I've never thought/believed that I've never actually exsisted. Although I've read here that many sufferers have experienced that.

I hope you'll be feeling better soon.

 

[Guest]

Yes I feel like this most of the time, especially in the mornings.

It feels like I need to wake up but cant, as if it is all a dream.

I get flashes of normality during this dream state which also freak me out.

Horrid. Lets hope it goes away soon!

Jude

 

[Guest]

Dear Sunshine Spirit,

When I said I lived half way around the world, I meant in the US. Sorry geography has never been my best subject. When I say I don't believe that I have ever exsisted, in my mind I know I have but it just doesn't feel that way sometimes. Thank you for all your reassurance.

 

[Sunshine Spirit]

Geography was one of my worst subjects, too. Mind you, I had a crap education, full stop! :lol:

I did understand what you meant, about not believing you've ever exsisted. Even though you know you have, it sometimes feels like you haven't. Yes, that's what some other DPers have felt, too.

I only mentioned what I and other DPers have felt, to try to help you figure out if you do have DP and/or DR. Prior to when I was diagnoised with it, I didn't have access to the Internet, so I had never even heard of DP/DR before. But soon after, when I read about it and realised that everything fitted, I felt like a black cloud had lifted from me.

Even though I still suffered like hell, I think it really helped to at least know what was wrong with me. I had always known there was something else wrong with me other than Depression and Anxiety.

Anyway, WhereamI, I don't know if you know this, but if you click on the 'search', at the top right of the page, you can type in a word, or phrase and you will immediately be taken to any information on that topic (I actually only discovered this last week... Duh! :roll: ). Hope this'll help?

Take care,

SS