[Daviddd]

hello, I would like to apologize in advance for any mistakes, but I'm from the Czech Republic and I don't speak English very well, so I'm writing through Google Translate

My condition is very critical, so it's a problem for me to write anything at all, but I'll try. I am 28 years old and something happened to me in my 20s and it got worse over time until now. At the age of 20 I started to feel that something was happening to my brain and I was gradually falling into my brain and losing contact with the world. I was a psychiatrist and he said I had depression and anxiety. The problem is that I don't feel depressed at all, but very empty, I don't feel emotions, I don't feel the atmosphere of any situation. At the beginning, my thoughts were very intense and frantic, various images, writings, etc. Over the course of 8 years, they gradually decreased until it reached a momentary situation where I have almost nothing and when so very quiet. Along with the thoughts, my emotions and feelings gradually decreased and now I am at 0. My sense of running time is absolutely destroyed, example: I drive for 3 hours and I don't feel that it's long at all, etc. I have absolutely no feeling like "oh it's morning and I have to go to work" or something like that, just nothing at all same level... I always have the feeling that I live in my head and I recreate it, for example: in my head I dream that I am going to do this and that and it seems to me that it will be fun, I get up and go to do it but I am always in my head and nothing I don't enjoy this activity, so I don't enjoy it at all and I'm not able to do anything.When I sleep, sometimes I don't know if my eyes are just closed or if I'm really asleep, I know it sounds weird, but it's true. After waking up, I don't feel and I don't know how I fell asleep, just nothing. I am able to do something for 2 hours and when someone asks me how long I have been doing it, I am not able to answer. I can't answer the question How do I feel, because I can't see it, just not at all. I never had a problem with not recognizing myself in the mirror or anything like that. I feel like I'm in a coma, my pronunciation is completely at 0. I want to ask if anyone has the same or similar situation with the gradual deterioration. I'm sorry if it's confusingly written, but I can't do it any better. Thank you very much for your reply.

 

[NoDevils]

Hello. What you're describing may relate to what sufferers and some people selling dubious treatments call "brain fog." I found this article by searching "medical term for 'brain fog'". The article attributes brain fog to "encephalopathy" and "delirium." I think encephalopathy refers to physical illnesses of the head whereas delirium is a mental state that can be caused by mental illness and exhaustion as well as physical illnesses. "Altered state of consciousness" is another term that gets used in a medical context and might include dissociation. Most doctors are going to balance your claims that you have a disease with notions that you're merely depressed or that the malaise you're experiencing is in fact not unusual.

So we have
-derealization
-depersonalization
-possible dissociation
-altered state of consciousness
-possible delirium
-encephalopathy unlikely unless you have some clearly medical symptoms

Clarity on brain fog

What’s the cause of your confusion?

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The article makes a good point. Lower states of consciousness and functioning can be isolating and partially debilitating which can contribute to depression and further problems.

Far as not feeling the expected emotions in reaction to things, that is a classic derealization symptom.

I'd recommend seeing a doctor and, after you're medically cleared, a clinical social worker. It may be a good idea to make lifestyle improvements and to continually see a psychiatrist if you aren't already.

 

[Daviddd]

Hi, thank you very much for your reply. I absolutely don't know what's going on, but it's completely strong, I only go to work and barely. I don't understand that the others don't recognize anything. I don't know if it's brain fog, but it seems strange to me that it would get worse year after year and slowly numb me. I thought I had simplex schizophrenia, but my doctor said that I wouldn't be able to function in that time and it would be visible on the outside. But does it seem to me that she doesn't understand at all, that I'm completely out of my depth and I don't understand how I can function. I don't feel permanently sad or anxious, I just feel like I'm in a state of mind at the moment, I don't have a permanent mood state.. I haven't found anyone on the internet who has it like me, gradually worsening, etc.

 

[Anonymous69]

I think you went through the same thing I went through for a year. I can't remember exactly but I was at a stage where it was empty in my head. I was so confused and got into it so gradually that I didn't know what was going on in my head. One day, after a panic attack, I started to gradually come out of it until the word "depersonalization" popped into my heard. Since then I have always concluded that it was that and I am now almost 100% cured. You can get out of it and you have to get out of it.

 

[Daviddd]

hi, thanks for the response. May I ask how you got out of it? what helped you or did it send itself? I'm already losing hope because it's been 8 years, but when I think back to the beginning, it was still good, but at least I felt something, now we're completely dead. I don't even panic, I feel completely calm as if nothing is happening, and that's terrible. Thank you.

 

[NoDevils]

Sometimes weird depressions and neuroses happen and science doesn't have the understanding or technology to explain them so it's chalked up to psychological disorder. I think it happens quite commonly. Many of us here know what triggered our condition but don't know exactly what our condition is, and many of us will never find out and have given up searching. I think depression and so forth are real disorders, like they have a real presence and impact on brain function and health.

 

[leminaseri]

I'm already losing hope because it's been 8 years, but when I think back to the beginning, it was still good, but at least I felt something, now we're completely dead. I don't even panic, I feel completely calm as if nothing is happening, and that's terrible.

thats a turning point where the condition becames unsufferable for a lot of people like us. its pretty weird. there is happening an additional step in the brain-mind connection i suppose.

 

[Anonymous69]

Me neither at the beginning. It was when I decided it was time to go out this thing and realized that I didn't know HOW to and what it was that I started to panic. So first I looked for how to stop this/these unbearable panic attack and people were saying to accept the thoughts and the state you were in, without trying to "fight" the thing.
So that's what I did ( we can take that for a "manifestation" thing but not at all ) : I constantly repeated to myself "I accept, I accept, I accept" and even if the thoughts told me crazy things like "there's no cure, you have brain decease, you're in a coma, you're schizophrenic, your cat is going to die" I accepted. No fighting, no more reentry into depersonalization.
Since I started this, I started to be more and more lucid from day to day, from week to week. I combined that with sports and other stuff I had read that stimulated the nervous system indirectly.
Unfortunately, even if I was on the right track with regard to the dp and that the anxiety attacks were less and less common, they were still impossible to physically support. ( btw, I advise you to write in your notes the improvements that there are each day/every week because this illness can sometimes make you believe that there is no change since the beginning but its FALSE. Write it and believe it. )
From the day I was able to go outside I went directly to the emergency room then to the psychiatric hospital and now I am on medication ( 1 and a half paroxetine antidepressant at 8 a.m, 1 half xanax at noon, 1 Xanax at 6 p.m. and 1 optional sleeping pill before to sleep )
I gradually recovered my sensations, been able to redo things I was no longer able to do, get myself back, regained my memory/concentration, and get my life together again/back ( I'm not english either )
This is how I healed, it was MY technique so don't hesitate to read other tips and testimonials. ( and ask for medicine )
Feel free to ask me any other questions and to keep me updated. I know the nightmare you are going through.

 

[Anonymous69]

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[Daviddd]

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[Anonymous69]

How I healed in 1 word

ACCEPTANCE It can seems like a manifesting or abstract thing but it is not. We are rational here. And it makes sense in a way. See : how do you calm panic attack ? With accepting the thoughts. This is how I discovered its the same for dp bc both are based on anxiety. You may not believe it...

www.dpselfhelp.com

 

[Anonymous69]

That's it