[Debora17]

I can't believe that I'm trapped in this hell AGAIN. I was completely recovered and after one stressful event it happened again. I'm so numb and unreal as well as anything around me. My life and reality are stolen again. Apart from feeling depersonalized/derealized I don't feel my breathing. As if I am lungless... That's the hardest part. i can't stand not feeling the air I breathe and I know it's crazy n I don't know if anyone else on earth has this symptom...but I am only an observer and don't feel human at all. Also I am on a vacation and has to umm maybe live and pretend to be normal... I don't know what to do😩😩😩

 

[coolwhip27]

I’m sorry, please believe me that I know exactly what that symptom is, no matter how hard you breathe you feel completely insensitive to your body, feeling lungless is awful. But it’s because you are in fight or flight mode, it’s because you so desperately don’t want to have to deal with the state. I find myself to only be out of that state when I’m not running away from it. In general, you are not calm. You’re freaking out, but there may be nothing that you have to do in order to get out

 

[Debora17]

I’m sorry, please believe me that I know exactly what that symptom is, no matter how hard you breathe you feel completely insensitive to your body, feeling lungless is awful. But it’s because you are in fight or flight mode, it’s because you so desperately don’t want to have to deal with the state. I find myself to only be out of that state when I’m not running away from it. In general, you are not calm. You’re freaking out, but there may be nothing that you have to do in order to get out

Thanks a lot! It's exactly the way you described. I try not to think about it but still..

 

[coolwhip27]

Thanks a lot! It's exactly the way you described. I try not to think about it but still..

I too rise and fall in and out of this state. Sometimes I’m ok and sometimes I’m not. Such is life

 

[thebiglie]

if you were completely recovered that means your brain knows full well how to heal, the chemistry was back as it should. in other words, if you did it once you can do it again. calm down, relax, youre not going to die. just think of how you felt when you were back to normal. then have a talk with your brain. okay, we did it once, things are hard right now, but i trust that when the time is right you will bring me back to a real state again. you are not alone, this place is filled with people who have felt the same. breathing and all, its nothing new. just try to not think about it, try to enjoy the rest of your vacation. do you wanna talk about the stressfull event? i know nobody around you will ever understand the way you feel, maybe getting it off your chest to someone on this forum will help?