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This feeling is so debilitating i was chill and ive been just living mu normal life , i even thought i was better and out of it at one point but it came back , not as bad as at first but it never lifts its here always , i know i need time and patience its only been 2 months in total , but i have so many intrusive thoughts , like fearing my own existence wich is so horrible painful , it makes me think the only way out is death because how else could i escape my cociousness or my existence? I know im freaking out i understand this and know its anxiety because it started after i withdrew xanax , but its so heavy it almost feels like something unreal or magical , i just want to get better and feel alive and enjoy i seriously dont want to die or anything im just so sad and sick of it how am i suposse to survive this
