[Jamie]

I cant take it anymore. I dont know what to do. This not feeling part. Its unbearable. It has alwats been like this. I dont know how much progress i have made. I dont know what it is like to live. I dont find pleasure in anything.
Please someone who also have no emotions. What do i do????? How do I get on.
6 months ago my dear older brother comitted suicide. I think if I die MAYBE I get to meet him? I think it is so much harder because i lost him. And also it get much more real. I'm thinking if he could do it maybe I can to.

Is there anyone who wants to talk? Here or on Skype maybe.

/Jamie

 

[ThoughtOnFire]

Hey,

First of all... the fact that it bothers you so much that you can't feel life, shows that you are still alive. If you were completely lost, then you wouldn't have such frustration/anger/suffering/etc at not being connected fully to life. Second, I think an older brother would want to see his younger sister to carry on and live the best life she could. I'm sure he'll be waiting at whenever the end does come for you. I have very close friends and family on the other side. I do believe in it, but that's just my opinion. I believe your older brother is watching over you even now. Take care of yourself, I know it's hard, but try to enjoy even the small things. A cup of coffee in the morning, a nostalgic song, a happy memory or even watch the nature around you. Hope this helps... you are NOT alone

 

[allison84]

Hi
Sorry about your older brother very sorry the grief of loosing him would be stirring on feelings of dissociation
I lost a family member 6 months ago yesterday and the feelings of dissociation became so much worse after the loss ' so much worse .
I to suffer from emotional detachment from everything , this got way way way worse after my loss and I still now I suffer from emotional detachment.
I've just started therapy and I do think it helped to see what I'm feeling is completely normal after such a significant loss , can you get I to therapy ?
Saying you think you could end it to see your brother, is normal feelings I to have struggled with feelings of wanting to die so I can be with my loved one . But it's not the answer, our loved ones wouldn't want their death to of caused us to want to die they wouldn't want us to feel as bad as we do .
I do think therapy could be the right thing for you , to help with your grief which will help with your feelings of dissociation...
Please we be safe