Hey all,
Well, as you may or may not know, I've relapsed. I'm not sure if it was the plane ride to dallas (from LA) and back, the displacement, drinking, or an unwise hit of cannabais (when drunk)...but, i'm LOST.
Desperately.
My symptoms offa the top are numbness of feeling, feeling like i don't have a "Sense of the room" (in other words, my home apartment suddenly feels FOREIGN to me....which is making me teary), dizziness, cloudy mind, pain in my head, stuffy/hurting ears, and trouble focusing my eyes. If i close my eyes and try to balance, I fall over (and wouldn't pass a sobriety test if my life depended on it! haha.)
I've promised myself to spend more time here, helping people make good decisions about what TO do about getting better, and especially what NOT to do...
But please remind me that this is going to go away. I was at 90% recovery, and I could get there again right? I'm soooo scared, and I don't have anyone. I've lost everything AGAIN.
Even my sanctuary doesn't feel real. Anybody feeling this?
Please, respond, please, I need help....=/
Sincerely,
Doug/Sixtiessoul/Dj/That70sboy
Well, as you may or may not know, I've relapsed. I'm not sure if it was the plane ride to dallas (from LA) and back, the displacement, drinking, or an unwise hit of cannabais (when drunk)...but, i'm LOST.
Desperately.
My symptoms offa the top are numbness of feeling, feeling like i don't have a "Sense of the room" (in other words, my home apartment suddenly feels FOREIGN to me....which is making me teary), dizziness, cloudy mind, pain in my head, stuffy/hurting ears, and trouble focusing my eyes. If i close my eyes and try to balance, I fall over (and wouldn't pass a sobriety test if my life depended on it! haha.)
I've promised myself to spend more time here, helping people make good decisions about what TO do about getting better, and especially what NOT to do...
But please remind me that this is going to go away. I was at 90% recovery, and I could get there again right? I'm soooo scared, and I don't have anyone. I've lost everything AGAIN.
Even my sanctuary doesn't feel real. Anybody feeling this?
Please, respond, please, I need help....=/
Sincerely,
Doug/Sixtiessoul/Dj/That70sboy