Please help me and give me some hope.

Hey guys and girls.

I'm new here, and i need some hope... im pretty down atm and i dont know how to handle it. u can read my story here: http://www.dpselfhelp.com/forum/index.php?/topic/50620-hey-im-new-and-let-me-tell-you-my-story/#entry352891 .

first of all, everyday im just searching in the internet about my symtoms, i hate me for that, but i just want do be normal again...

my main symtoms are : headpressure, visual snow on white walls and in the sky, halos, tinnitus when i go to bed.

everyday i just ask me the same shit, why is see all of this shit... everyday i have a bit anexity... i just fear everything... i'm thinking that im not going to be normal again because i have a bad disorder...

i wear a glasses, i had massive 2d vision with it. now i'm using contacts, and its way better... i do my sport everyday, but i still have fear because im searching... noone of the doctors want help me.

my symtomes are way better than in the beginning, i remember one time that i see vs and floaters everywhere it was like 11/10 now it is like 4/10... but i still have anexity... normally i have to be really happy about that, but i just fear the hell out of me...

my main problem is i start thinking that this is lyme, but everytime i ask myself: dude, if u have lyme, u are not able to do your sport. sometimes i thinking : the most of the people who thinking they have lyme dont have it, i saw a video about it, and the most of the people have pain like hell. or somethime im also thinking: maybe the guys who have lyme just worrie so much about this that they get the same symtomes as we have.

i also had after images, but they are gone now...

but sometimes i thinking i have something in my body, because i feel so unreal... im thinking my body fight something... or is this just my anexity? i dont know...

and 70% of all users here have this shit because of drugs, i never used drugs in my life... that is also hard for me to understand...

guys, do you know people how recovered from this shit? or someone here who have exact the same symtomes? DP is so fucking hard for me... i just want to be normal, without fear...

someone of you know stories they are similar to mine? and guys who recovered from it? give me some hope please...