I'm currently doing a philosophy degree, about the worst degree a dp'er could take, but there's no going back I suppose (it's ok really). I tend to be very sceptical about knowledge as are many philosophers. I think if I weren't so anxious and obsessive I'd be content with the knowledge that other people exist, even if the ultimate nature of reality is unknown to me.
So anyway, what's my point? I was reading a comment Bertrand Russell (great British 20th century philosopher) made about David Hume (Great British 18th century philosopher) in contrast with Rousseau (Great 18th century French philosopher). It was something to the effect of 'Hume was sane but had no followers, but Rousseau was mad and had many'. Hume was sceptical towards most forms of knowledge, he was very smart but a totally realistic philosopher. He didn't develop fancy metaphysical ideas without any grounding in reality. Rousseau on the other hand was a crazy romantic. I am very much like Hume. I've become incredibly scpetical and realistic about reality, life etc. Whilst many other, supposedly sane, people fly around with their crazy ideals so sure of themselves and what life is all about, I sit ever so slightly bewildered by the whole thing. I don't mean in a necessarily dp'ed or depressed way, I just mean that I am aware of my own ignorance, aware of the limits of my knowledge, aware of what I can realistically expect out of life, and also aware that there are no real absolutes. I can still enjoy a good film, enjoy a nice meal or even fall in love, but I don't seem to have the self assurance that others seem to have. A lot of people my age strut around confident that Kurt Cobain is god, or that there is no God, believing themselves to have absolute mastery over their destiny, or believing whole heartedly that a night out on the piss is the absolute pinacle of their youth. Call me crazy, but is that not a little closer to insanity than what I experience.
Oh and one more thing, I'm so rational now that I wont' abandon my reason even in my dreams. Last night I dreamed I was masturbating and spewing fluorescent semen, I had to rub it all over these buttons on this machine, so I could see what I was pressing in the dark (analyze that one Freud). Suddenly I realised the absurdity of what I was doing and woke up. This happens quite frequently, my constant obsessive rationality wont' be subdued, even in my dreams.
Thanks for reading,
Alex
So anyway, what's my point? I was reading a comment Bertrand Russell (great British 20th century philosopher) made about David Hume (Great British 18th century philosopher) in contrast with Rousseau (Great 18th century French philosopher). It was something to the effect of 'Hume was sane but had no followers, but Rousseau was mad and had many'. Hume was sceptical towards most forms of knowledge, he was very smart but a totally realistic philosopher. He didn't develop fancy metaphysical ideas without any grounding in reality. Rousseau on the other hand was a crazy romantic. I am very much like Hume. I've become incredibly scpetical and realistic about reality, life etc. Whilst many other, supposedly sane, people fly around with their crazy ideals so sure of themselves and what life is all about, I sit ever so slightly bewildered by the whole thing. I don't mean in a necessarily dp'ed or depressed way, I just mean that I am aware of my own ignorance, aware of the limits of my knowledge, aware of what I can realistically expect out of life, and also aware that there are no real absolutes. I can still enjoy a good film, enjoy a nice meal or even fall in love, but I don't seem to have the self assurance that others seem to have. A lot of people my age strut around confident that Kurt Cobain is god, or that there is no God, believing themselves to have absolute mastery over their destiny, or believing whole heartedly that a night out on the piss is the absolute pinacle of their youth. Call me crazy, but is that not a little closer to insanity than what I experience.
Oh and one more thing, I'm so rational now that I wont' abandon my reason even in my dreams. Last night I dreamed I was masturbating and spewing fluorescent semen, I had to rub it all over these buttons on this machine, so I could see what I was pressing in the dark (analyze that one Freud). Suddenly I realised the absurdity of what I was doing and woke up. This happens quite frequently, my constant obsessive rationality wont' be subdued, even in my dreams.
Thanks for reading,
Alex