People around me don't understand

Hello,

I have been struggling with dr for few years. I actually been consistantly "gone", or in a zombie-like state for around 3 years straight.
Now, when I write it, I understand how insane that sounds but its true.
My body participated in life while my head did not. What the hell? And yes, it was a reall hell.
I tried to quit the nightmarish hell life but I am still here. Recovering.
Three years after my attamt at leaving this life behind I am almost not dissosiating.
I know you all had plenty of similar trouble.
But what I want to know if you experienced similar unability to understand from friends or family?
I myself, had a need to explain myself to people Who were close to me during the dissosiation. I wanted to explain that the person they know, all of them were new in my life, is not real me.
Long story short, it took a lot of effort to explain in the most detail how it felt but it didnt work. People didnt get me.
Some really tried. I could see.
I no longer have a need to explain myself, doing better and while around others very cautious of not bringing up or discussing my dp.
I figured it is the best for me.
Can you relate?