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alright people, does anyone find that they can be by themselves thinking that maybe things seem how they used to, then all of a sudden another person walks in the room and it feels like that invisible barrier has been put back up again and the feeling of detachment starts again? i kinda feel that this and the dreaded flourescent lighting are my only major setbacks from dp at the mo. let me know what you think

p.s good work ben on F.E.A.R
 
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I know exactly how you feel. It's getting better than it used to be, but I used to get really panicky when people would walk into the room or call me on my cell or anything. I would kind of clam up and feel like I was going insane. No matter how hard that was, I kept trying to communicate with others because I knew that it was the key to thinking outwards, and so far, it's been working. I really understand where you are coming from though. Just keep working at it.
 

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i will keep on trying, thanks for the reply
 

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It's a matter of displacement and normality of CONTEXT - the environment around you is normal and controlled, and then someone enters it and a second variable comes into play - you feel a sudden JOLT, and you're into a different context. For those of us who are highly sensitive to environmental changes or change in general - the trance of living in our own world and its interruption can be very uncomfortable.

The only real answer, from what I have been able to find, is to keep yourself from trancing out as much as possible, or if you do feel the need to trance out - lay down or get a nap or something instead.

From the outside looking in, I think "we" as a culture have trouble with trances - that is, deep flows of consciousness that kind of carry us along. We kind of get comfortable on this path and anytime it's disrupted we're very "upset" about it.
 

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Yes, I get this all the time. Sometimes I think of just moving away from everyone where I can live alone and not have to face this, but I know that would just makes things worse.
 

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When you are alone you begin to be your real self, perhaps being able to connect to it for even a breif moment. Enter another person and you put back on your mask, your persona, which is dead inside and/or anxious.
 

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i completely agree with Cecil and the others above, i get the same thing. like today i thought everything was great and i was feeling better until BAM my mother comes home early from work and i find myself zoning out at the TV with her. it's like i love her but her meanings she places on the movies are far different from my own. for example her following the plot with all the characters being involved and the serendipity and flow of the action is missed by me. i just see things in "frames" always being in the moment and alot of times missing the connection between the pieces. it's like i feel left out, so i begin to withdraw deeper into myself and then i get the questions "are you okay?" which makes me even more mad and bummed so i get even more clammy.

it's funny how we all experience the same thing, i guess i really do have DP, cause the symptoms are right. my mom's psych said meds don't do shit so i'm hesitant to take em. playing basketball really helps though (going off topic now). anyway im gonna plug my self-help method anyway http://www.sedona.com helps me feel alive again

what happens when someone enters my "reality sphere" of influence is first i have the panic attack, then i get the depression , closing off of myself (probably self-defence mechanisms) and then i just get the blank stare with no feelings/suppressing my emotions feeling not dead but not alive... sort of existential isn't it?

:arrow: :arrow: :arrow: :x
 

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--When you are alone you begin to be your real self, perhaps being able to connect to it for even a breif moment. Enter another person and you put back on your mask, your persona, which is dead inside and/or anxious.--

I know exactly what you mean Cecil. One of the reasons i think my dp/dr gets bad is because sometiems i don't think I have a really good sense of self. I've spent a lot of my life hiding my real feelings, or tinking that what I'm feeling is "wrong" and that I shouldn't be angry with people, dislike people, all of those things, so somewhere along the way I lost some of the ability to connect with my own emotions and feelings. Now, when I get angry at something, it's almost irrational in my head and the dp swells to a peak. Anger is a big issue for me, because I've never really felt that I should ever be angry, so i stifle it (which is totally unhealthy) and I kind of fragment emotionally. I'm always trying to please people, putting everyone else before me, so i'm constantly wearing a mask (even when I'm alone, I sometimes think badly about someone and then get upset at myself for it, trying to push those thoughts away.) Does this resonate with anyone else...the possibility that maybe hiding my real feeilngs and emotions for so long could lead to some of the dp/dr?
 

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Does this resonate with anyone else...the possibility that maybe hiding my real feeilngs and emotions for so long could lead to some of the dp/dr?
In a word..yes. My doctor has told me continually that my current symptoms of DR are emotional based, why he doesnt beleive meds will help. Which when i think back to how i interact with the world, i.e never wanted to upset anyone, adapting my persona so it will fit others expectations etc i can see that.

Its like i have supressed my true emotional self in order to try and fit in and in the process have slowly eroded my sense of self. Coupled with general anxiety i have had for the last seveal years its probably no suprise i find myself in the situation i do.

The only question now is how do i reverse this situation and regain me back again...and will it even make a dent on my DR now its taken hold. Its only been 4 months now but feels like an eternity.
 
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