I swear I’m going through the exact same thing at the moment, I’ve never been this scared in my life. Mine was triggered from a bad reaction to an antidepressant switch. I feel somewhat less alone reading your story. Im currently on Xanax for it but it seems to wear off fast and I’m right back into that tense paralyzing fear of literally everything. I’m scared to look in the mirror I’m scared to go into one room into another shower in my own home! I’ll I can do is lay in bed in my own misery. Panic attacks wake me up every single morning I get these burst of hotness come over my body and my heart races 0 to 60 it feels like. I clinch my hands so hard at night they bleed! My nerves are shot my dr wants to throw me into a mental hospital and that thought alone gives me unbearable anxiety. I’m not a threat to myself or anyone for that matter. So I don’t see a need for it. I’m just praying this new antidepressant kicks fast because I’m beyond miserable right now. Let me tell u about Effexor I was in it and the withdrawals are HELL so I can almost promise you that triggered it. I’m so so sorry you’re going through this. But you’re absolutely not alone.
Paralyzing Fear
I am completely paralyzed by fear lately. I am afraid of everything. Everything I see or hear scares me. I am constantly in fight or flight mode and can feel adrenaline coursing through my body. I feel like I am in a closet looking through a peephole watching a murderer walk closer and closer, and just knowing he's going to open the door and kill me. This is pure, primal fear. Xanax alleviates it for a short time but then it comes right back. It is the most terrifying and debilitating feeling I can imagine. Obviously when I feel like this my dpdr intensifies greatly, leading to a feeling like I'm going crazy which makes me feel even more afraid. I just finished tapering off of effexor, could this be why? Everything in me just wants to run to the hospital but I know they can't help me. It is so disheartening to know there's nowhere you can go for help. Have any of you dealt with this feeling? I have tried meditation but it scares me, exercise scares me, talking to other people scared me. I look at my dog whom I love so much and I'm just filled with fear. I can't live like this. To be honest I would do anything to make it stop. Please help.
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So Ativan made your dp worse you think? My anxiety started with a antidepressant switch. Bad reaction to it. I see my dr tomorrow and shockingly I’m too scared to because my nerves are that bad
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