Hi Lulu. I'm sorry, you sound in a real bad way right now. In the past year I've suffered similarly. I would feel panic and fear when talking about anything reality related. I couldnt engage in my old interests because the topic of history would freak me out because of its time element. The cosmos would freak me out existentially. The ocean, heights, memes. Everything terrified me, its a horrible state of mind. The best advice i recieved was to just sit with the fear and truly feel it. it's just bad energy that needs releasing and when you feel it it's done. Ive recently started to get alot better.
Alex
Alex