Every day feels the same and every day feels different. Like when i wake up i have to remember who i am and what im doing. im constantly overwhelmed by my emotions and what im feeling yet somehow underwhelmed by everything going on around me at the same time. it all feels very, very hopeless and pointless. I want to try and do this as a daily journal sort of thing, so hopefully i can keep up with it. im sure its not hard to tell that my thoughts are scattered. im very anxious all the time, always in flight mode. ive had thoughts of running away and leaving everything behind, like maybe if i expose myself to something totally brand new ill get over this shitty feeling of feeling both too real and not real at all.