[peaceboy23]

So I've thought of something kind of interesting. I'm wondering if my sunny optimism is, to an extent, actually denial. I think of myself as an optimist, and hate to read all these hopeless comments from people, but at the same time, i'm not letting myself feel my negative feelings, because I think they are "bad." However, unless I'm able to visit these feelings, I dont think that I'll be able to deal with my depressio and anxiety and dp/dr. I am hiding from them under the mask of "optimism" when really it's just desperation to always appear in control and perfect and outwardly wonderful. Just a thought.

 

[Sojourner]

A very insightful thought, I think.

 

[MrMortgage]

Are you Sagitarius? I am, and I'm an extreme optimist sometimes.

 

[peaceboy23]

Nope actually I'm an Aquarius, although we are renown for our optimism for the world....sometimes at the expense of ourselves (less intimate friendships and self-care.)

You know it's interesting though, because even when I"m at my worst, I do have hope. I don't want to die, and it's not just because I'm scared of death (that is part of it) but I really believe that I can have a happier me and a better time at life. It's just sometiems I cover up the lesser parts of myself with sunny optimism that is a shield.

 

[Sojourner]

It's a bit of a mixture, no?

We need optimism and hope about feeling better.

We need to face painful feelings inside.

We can do both!

 

[boohoo]

Oh, I'm completely in denial about how mashed up my life is - I now have agoraphobia and spend a lot of my time pretending to myself that I'm having fun tidying my bedroom and staying in bed watching tv. Then every so often, I'll speak to someone on the phone for instance, hear all about them going on holiday / starting a new job / going out etc and it hits me. It hits me that I'm so far away from being normal, I'm not sure if I'll ever achieve it again... But yeah, deep down I have managed to convince myself that I'll be ok.
I've got a really bad memory too, which is good. I forget a lot of the hell I go through.
But optimism is good.

 

[Guest]

im pretty optimistic myself

Ive had some very bad life experiences, and my life is probably well below par compared to most others....

But you know what? I dont care.... Experiencing life at its worth is much better than not experiencing it at all.

(of course life is nearly never at its worst for me, but i do believe that)

Just today i sent an email to my entire english class while trying to send it only to the teacher.... said some quite personal stuff in it, but i sent another email saying

"Well, since this email system is wierd i guess everyone got that private email. Oh well, nothing i can do about it now, hopefully you can all know me better for it now"

I wrote the email as a response to the teacher sending out an email to the entire class.... but instead of sending only back to the teacher like it should as a response.... sent it to the entire class :shock: :x :roll: