[Guest]

*CAUTION, SPOILERS AHEAD!*
Ok, after 2 years of struggling, after this last period of my life in which I've fought to beat my worst fear (madness), I've reached the conclusion that I'm not crazy...BUT...I've developed another similar obsession, which is "Okay, you're obviously not crazy, but what about your thoughts? And your mood? Maybe you're in the prodromal phase of schizophrenia!"
So I went on the net searching for prodromal signs of schizophrenia and, of course, I identified myself with many of these...this, plus the irrational thoughts about paranoia and delusions (mostly philosophical thinking about the nature of the world,like "world not real" and "Truman show" theories), has put on me an incredible fear of developing sz.
As if it wasn't enough, I've ever find an article on the net where it says that people in the prodromal phase of sz may still be able to argue that they're thoughts are not rational...damn!!
I'm sorry I'm often monothematic, my dp/dr + ocd manifest itself only with this stupid fear of going crazy...Janine, anyone, can you help me?

Thank you,
Tau

 

[Chris]

Hey,

You just described me down to the bone.

I've had dp and anxiety for 4 years. I always thought I had it bad. UNTIL.........Last month I started feeling really weird and different. Started havin delusions possibly. Felt sleepy all day long. Went and researched schizophrenia for the millionth time and there it was. The Prodrone or whatever it is. I freaked out.... and because of it I've entered chronic DP. I thought I had bad DP all these years but that was NOTHING compared to what I feel now...

So I too think about schizophrenia all the time. And its made me DP'd beyond belief. Im becoming agoraphobic. I don't hear my own voice anymore. I'm not real.

Went to the psych. Told him about the delusional stuff, he said I wasnt schizo but prescribed me anti psychs.......... I never took them. Too scared.

 

[falling_free]

Scitzophenia is a brain disorder, You can only get it if you are predisposed to the illness people don't just get scitzophenia out of the blue , If they get the illness its becuase they have a brain defect IMO.

Youv'e just got bad anxiety which is manifesting itself in a fear of madness not madness itself, I have been close to the edge of madness and IMO I think delusions are only a sign of scitzophnia when a person exclpitilly belives a delusion to be 100% fact, so for example instaed of someone having a thought of what if people are spying on me but knowing this is not true just a delusion thought pattern, a scitzophenic would belive this delusion without question and would probably hallcinate spies comign after them, hear voices saying things such as were going to get you etc etc.

I have delusional thoughts all the time, but I still have the power of reason and logic so I know whats real and whats just my imagination and fried brain working overtime to confuse me.

 

[Guest]

Hey "delusional" guys, look what I've found on the net!

http://www.schizophrenia.co.uk/research ... es_17.html

After reading this VERY VERY interesting article, I wonder why DMSIV is still regarded as the "bible" of mentall illnesses :roll:
The more I read things like these, the more I believe psychyatry is a faliure as a science.
Tau

 

[Guest]

ONe of the most significant hallmarks of schizophrenia is hallucinations (visual or auditory), not delusions.

There are all kinds of delusions that people can suffer from - mild ones, things that fall into the neurotic category, like extreme hypochrondria, up to and including Paranoid Delusions (like I had, where I thought I had invented the world or that all my entire life had been a dream). Paranoid Delusions is NOT schizophrenia.
It's not un-serious, but it's not the same "animal" as schizophrenia at all.

Many paranoid people, who others might call a little nutty, are able to "isolate" their delusions to specific states. (it's called "state dependent delusions"). That means somebody can have a job, interact with people, and be "normal" in most ways..but also secretly believe he has been abducted by aliens and that the mother ship is coming back for him on his next birthday.

So do you have paranoid delusions? I don't know. I know i did, and I'm not crazy. And even if you DO have very bizarre thoughts and obsessions and dp, that is nowhere near the same thing as schizophrenia. The SYMPTOM is that you are obsessing about insanity.

A little knowledge is a very dangerous thing. And that's what you get from the interent.

And don't even bother asking me for the specific hallmark symptoms of schizophrenia. I am not falling for it. lol....Trust me, Tau, you are not now nor will you become schizophenic. However, you can really make yourself much much worse by continuing to read all that stuff.

Love,
J

 

[terri*]

"However, you can really make yourself much much worse by continuing to read all that stuff." Miss Janine Baker's Save Yourself 101 Class ;D

I'm telling you, don't google/copernic, etc. yourself to the point of insanity. You may scare the hell out of yourself, but in the end you still aren't going to be anything but an anxiety ridden person with dp or dr or dp/dr.

When compared with the prodromal phase of schizophrenia, I think I'd just as soon live in ignorance thinking I'm just dp/dr'd. Now save yourself and stop it.

Wishing you the best.
terri

 

[Guest]

Thank you, Janine, Terri and all the others!
I know that all my fears and obsessions are due to my internet searches, and I'm so stupid that I continue searching...I'm actually considering the possibility of throwing my ADSL modem right into the WC, however I could always do searches with the pc's at my university
It's like a drug..."One search, just one more...what if you find something that completely reassures you? Come on, try it one more time!".
Damn internet. 3 years of my life gone forever.

Tau