[M A R S]

I had a real good day, on Monday. I was feeling FREE of DP! I hung with my friend had some beer all was good for the first time in 5 weeks. I woke up today feeling still ok for the first time in weeks, I FELT REAL!

Then as the day went on i could feel it creeping back. Until it hit me full on. Now i have the feeling of crazy unreality and self awareness that it HATE!

Now I'm shot and afraid to sleep, I'm forcing my self to drink and i hate it. THIS FCUKING SUCKS! Ill post this song lyric:
--
Come along with me to my little corner of the world
Dream a little dream in my little corner of the world
You'll soon forget that there's any other place
Tonight, my love, we'll share a sweet embrace

And if you care to stay in my little corner of the world
We could hide away in my little corner of the world
I always knew that I'd find someone like you
So welcome to my little corner of the world

And if you care to stay in our little corner of the world
We could hide away in our little corner of the world
We always knew that we'd find someone like you
So welcome to our little corner of the world
--
I'm now drunk, sick and just want to give up...

 

[Martinelv]

That creeping awareness you speak of, the slow realisation that the DR/DP is returning, is often caused by an increasing amount of anxiety regarding the 'fear' of the DR/DP returning, especially after you've had a good day.

 

[kchendrix]

One day at a time is all you can do... Slow down on the drinking man! a couple of beers ok.. But the alcohol makes it worse the next day. Hang in there space... You know if you had one good day, more will follow.

KC