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PREAMBLE: If you are in any way homophobic, disregard this post now.
So I decided that I'd attempt something different in 2013: Trying. Trying to be a "real person," putting myself out there in the world, and actually making an attempt to get better.
I've been doing pretty well; I've been working out 5 days a week, eating more, going outside, etc. But today I made one of the biggest moves possible, I went on a date.
Now, I haven't been on a date in 3 years since my last break-up, so I was anxious as hell to say the very least. We met up, had some lunch, and wound up having a really good time. But, as soon as I got home, the thoughts started. "Do I really like him, or am I just trying to fill a void?" "Where is this going?" "Am I even worthy of his time?" "How can I possibly attempt to start a new relationship if my head is this fucked up?"
From what I can infer, I really like him. The aura that I got from him was one of, "I think this one's a keeper." Is that weird?? But I am just so afraid of #1. Making a huge terrible mess of things, just like last time and #2. Letting someone in, and showing the vulnerable side of myself.
In any case, I don't want to fuck a good thing up before it starts, so any advice would be greatly appreciated.
I realize that this isn't the DPD Dating Forum, but a friend in need, no?
So I decided that I'd attempt something different in 2013: Trying. Trying to be a "real person," putting myself out there in the world, and actually making an attempt to get better.
I've been doing pretty well; I've been working out 5 days a week, eating more, going outside, etc. But today I made one of the biggest moves possible, I went on a date.
Now, I haven't been on a date in 3 years since my last break-up, so I was anxious as hell to say the very least. We met up, had some lunch, and wound up having a really good time. But, as soon as I got home, the thoughts started. "Do I really like him, or am I just trying to fill a void?" "Where is this going?" "Am I even worthy of his time?" "How can I possibly attempt to start a new relationship if my head is this fucked up?"
From what I can infer, I really like him. The aura that I got from him was one of, "I think this one's a keeper." Is that weird?? But I am just so afraid of #1. Making a huge terrible mess of things, just like last time and #2. Letting someone in, and showing the vulnerable side of myself.
In any case, I don't want to fuck a good thing up before it starts, so any advice would be greatly appreciated.
I realize that this isn't the DPD Dating Forum, but a friend in need, no?
