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I have wrote about this in the past several times and I still can't connect with some1 in my situation. I had DP/DR really bad for 4 months from experimenting with pot in summer of 2002. When I first smoked weed i got that dp/dr feeling however I was ignorant of it and I thought it was just a high since I didnt know much about what a smoking high is. I got a panic attack and I had DP/DR the whole nite ,, it then went away.

I smoke a few more times afterwards during the weekend and during school once I smoked alot and it resulted in DP>DR really bad (again keep in mind I dont know its DP/DR since i didnt know anything about the disorder) . It then went away the next day and 3 days later in school I got dp.dr again out of nowhere where everything seem really weird. Not as strong as from after smoking weed but i felt the strangeness in the air. As days went by it got stronger and stronger. I had to leave school and go to a psych the whole semester. Before Xmas it went away, out of nowhere, i felt really relaxed that day and it just left i started feeling everything again.

Now its been 2yrs since i dont have DP/DR however I feel this numbness at all times. Do not know how to explain it but i feel a little detached at all times and it never gets better just stays at that level. I dont think i have dp/dr cause i dont obsess, i dont see anything as being strange, i dont question, i feel like im here, but this numbness bothers me. I wake up with it all the time and feel somewhat disconnected and apathetic about alot of things. At time of real stress like now b/c I have 3 finals tomorrow i get more disconnected but not depersonalized or derealization. Just disconnected where i dont feel completely awake or alive.. dont feel my surrounding as much as I used to.!! Can anyone relate?
Someone know what this is?
Is it possibly a mild for of DP/DR which I doubt but is it possible?
 

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I don't know , maybe depression due to the lack of a feeling of purpose and the numbness that you describe, maybe a low serotonin level, but I don't know Im no expert at these things.
 

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it sounds to me like a low level of dp/dr that only comes troublesome when more stress is added......i know there are different levels of the symptoms....but as falling free said it could be to underlying depression
 

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thanks for replying. I think it is depression but I wasnt so sure that depression has a symptom of numbness that stays consistent at all times.
I am contemplating on whether to get on an ssri but I am still not sure which would be best for me. Benzo's are definitely out of the question.
I just want to feel alive, this feeling is more tolerable than dp.dr at its extreme but i just want everything to go away.

might sound silly but im afraid to get on an ssri b/c of my girlfriend, she just got on the pill, so we can have more during sex but if i get on an ssri i dont want to be dysfunctional.
 
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I too have experience with the numbness your talking about, It will go away, it's part of DP, it's from anxiety even though you say you don't have it. Your sub-conscious is very powerful. Mine happened from pot as well. just don't dwell on it, think positive, read positive books and try a seritonon drug. lexipro or something.
 

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laquw said:
might sound silly but im afraid to get on an ssri b/c of my girlfriend, she just got on the pill, so we can have more during sex but if i get on an ssri i dont want to be dysfunctional.
since it sounds like mild depression, why not try a serotonin booster with little to no side effects first, like 5-htp, st. john's worts, or Sam-E? don't go to SSRI's unless you really have to, imho.

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It could be depersonalization I guess. You don't have to question reality of yourself excessively to feel dp, it's just that these traits often seem to come along with it.

On the other hand it may well just be depression, I'm no expert.

Would you say the "numbness" is emotional, physical, or both?
 
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