It sounds like he was manipulative and emotionally abusive. That's a horrible way for him to behave. Some narcissists will use things like psychology or spirituality as weapons. They can sound very convincing because they are clever and devious, but ultimately what they are doing is abuse, and they can make you feel like everything you are, do or feel is wrong or not good enough. I think that convincing someone to turn against themselves is maybe the nastiest result of bullying and manipulation, as the results can linger long after they are gone, like an automatic program.
I think the best thing is to start overwriting that program as soon as possible by learning that being made to feel bad doesn't mean you are bad, or lacking in any way. It can be as simple as saying to yourself, "I was made to (or he made me) feel bad about myself, but I'm not bad, I never was and there was never anything wrong with me. I'm a good person" He was the sick one projecting onto you. Accept and Correct. Unconditionally accept how you were made to feel by the other person because they were valid feelings that came from how you were treated, then correct the negative and false learning they gave you, and keep doing this over and over until it sinks in. Explore this new information you give yourself, is it true? Are you a bad person or were you in fact made to feel that way by someone else? This can be a very emotional process, but ultimately cathartic. Hope this helps.
That's okay, sometimes we say more than we feel comfortable sharing. Sometimes just writing it out though can be helpful, even if no-one sees it. Do you want me to delete my reply? I can delete the thread if you like.
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