[Guest]

Hi everybody .........sorry if my english is bad.........
here is my story..

I am very successful engineer and i had a very busy life...in my own country....i was happy..had lots of friends....i was close tmy family.....

But later I got married and i moved to another place(different county)...
My husband is a really very very nice person.........

I quit my job to accompany my husband...in his place...
Now i dont have a job.....and due to lots of immigration issues iam not allowed to work.....which means i am stuck at home........

tthen i had lots of friends and relatives around me.......but here i am allalone .my husband goes to office and comes back in the evenin all day long i sit athome.between the four walls..........i feellike i am in a jail...........

slowly from loneliness i graduated to depression..............from tere to selfpity .........from there to dp and dr...........

i felt i was snapped away from my real life.(which was in my country and iam put here..........)

when ever i was alone i started to selfobsess about me........which lead to all these thoughts...........

i think as if i am dreaming...............
it looked like i was standing far far away from the earth and i am watching it.................
wondered if anything is there more than life.or are we very insignificant..........
is everything is just an illusion?
ami the only person in this world and that everything elseare my thoughts and are happening forme.................
why are the things the way itis.............
will i be snatched away any time and put ina totally diffrent world........where i will not seemy husband.............i really really love him......i have troubled him enough.................
am i going thru somekind of transition..............
somemoments whenverv i amnormal i start to feel.....so now what....what am i seeing.................does evrybody out there see the things the sameway i see.............
i concentrate on my body and wonder where am i inside my body.what is that i feel "i"....................

i can write a millions of these...............the list goes on...........

al i need fromyou people is just some confidence and nice replies which would hep me...........right nowi dont have any friends.................

thanks in advance

 

[Guest]

Welcome to the boards.

You say that the problem originated out of the depression caused by your husband's absence? Have you tried confronting him about it? I appreciate that things can appear strange and alien in foreign countries, I lived in one for nine years myself. How are immigration laws preventing you from getting a job, exactly? Perhaps you should get a part-time job in the meantime - something menial, you know - nothing too stressful. It might serve as a distraction. Obsessing alone in your house, in my experience, is one of the worst things that you can do. You need to get back out into the world.

And for what it's worth: you're English is fine, recover. It sounds as though you have worse things to worry about. It's important to remember that you're not alone and that the problem is not permanent and most importantly, be strong.

 

[Guest_]

unfortunately i am not a figment of your imagination, YOU are a figment of mine! get it right.

just kidding.

A lot of time alone can really get your mind going. Have hope! it gets better! good luck. welcome to the boards.