[livinginhell333]

nothing at all. everything looks fake. why can't just like my family seem real to me or my dog. something.

 

[Imagine]

Yip. There too.

Do your memories feel real?

 

[dreamcatcher]

memories..........they show us that all this is real even though it all feels so fake:0(

 

[bat]

livinginhell

is it a visual thing like if you're on something? i mean is it acid colours and faces to some extent?(ignore that question if you haven't taken drugs) if your eyes are closed is it ok? can you explain it to me? i'm just trying to see if i can relate; if i can i can tell you what i've done so far to see if it might help

 

[livinginhell333]

no no acid colours. for me everything is 2d like a picture totally lifeless. objects people. it seems like i can't see clear at all. colours have no meaning or brightness to it. its just bland. everything is bland and blah. there is no meaning to everything. no my memories don't feel real. its like everything that has happended to me in the past hasn't really happended to me. i don't remember what i did like yesterday or a few days ago. i mite remember some things but it just didn't seem like i was doing it. its all just one big constant fog dream like expierience that i do not know how to get out of. if the dr can lift and things can have more meaning things would be a little better.

 

[bat]

i seem to experience the other side of the spectrum to you. i get too much stimulii, like i'm sitting in space and totally aware of eternity and nothing, and i am nothing. just terrified

my experience of where you are is probably nothing to what you're experiencing. anyway, i went through about a year, about 20 years ago, when i took acid every second day. the days in between i woke up into a grey lifeless existence something like you're describing. i eventually got anti depressants from a psychiatrist. i can't remember the name of them but they weren't ssris or prozac or anything modern. anyway they made me feel a bit stoned in a content way (pupils were enlarged on them) and i was ok for a few years after that.

sorry i can't be of any more help

 

[Guest]

I can complete relate to what you are saying (I think). It is like you are looking at a family member and know who they are but don't feel that same connection that you once had and everything just feels so freaking off. Am I coming close to what you are talking about?
Kate

 

[peacedove]

Well I don't know about anyone else, but that's exactly how I feel Kate. And memories... they used to bring me comfort but now... it's like they're becoming a part of this constant fog livinginhell was describing. It used to be my memories were real... ah fuck I don't know what's goin on.

 

[Sojourner]

Is it possible that "nothing is real" is a euphemism for "I feel really bad"?

 

[livinginhell333]

I can complete relate to what you are saying (I think). It is like you are looking at a family member and know who they are but don't feel that same connection that you once had and everything just feels so freaking off. Am I coming close to what you are talking about?
Kate

yea thats pretty close.