[JoshLasek]

I’m 23 years old and have been dealing with what I believe to be dp/dr since early June this Year. Some days are better than others but for the most part I’m constantly dissociated and don’t feel like my old self at all. There’s a logical side of me that knows I’m going to die someday so why would I rush it, but sometimes I get so uncomfortable with how I’m feeling that I just don’t want to feel it anymore and I feel like there’s no other choice but to end it. I’ve had depression and anxiety since high school but I feel silly thinking back about it cause now I feel an extreme overwhelming amount. I’m upset that I’ve developed into this weird mental state where my actions are no longer deliberate and I feel like nothing really exists and I feel so disconnected from everything. Any help would be appreciated, I’ve had these feelings before when I was 13 from smoking salvia, but it faded when I went into highschool and now I’m older dealing with this and it’s much harder to cope

 

[Respekta]

Hey..

Same for me.. I smoked some weed for the 1st time 1 year ago and now my life is hell. I do have solipsitic thoughts every 10 seconds and the worst part is, that my brain actually believes them. It´s so hard to continue, because my life before OCD or whatever this is, was so good, I could laugh every time, day and night, I had so much fun and now it´s just gone. I had 23 years of fun enjoyment and now it feels like my life is over. 14 months passed and it feels like 14 years.. time passes slowly and I still don´t know why I have to be like this? Out of everything why has it to be like this? It´s hell.. My life just changed over night and there is no way out. I tried everything. I went to like 20 different doctors I tried medication I´m in therapy and nothing helps. Like nothing. It doesn´t change anything.. I don´t know how long I´m able to continue, because I can´t do this for the rest of my life

 

[Respekta]

E: I don´t wanna kill myself, I just want to live

 

[Sabby]

I can relate to you guys. It is really tough living with this. I've had this for 6 months now. But you can't give up. Just remember that the brain can heal. There's no magic formula to resolve this thing but it can be done. Stay strong and keep trying to continue and live your life as best as possible. I believe that is the cure.

 

[Sabby]

I dream about going back to normal. I want it so bad. Check out my intro story guys as I hope it helps.