I hope everyone is doing well and hanging on until you all recover from this miserable condition.
So I have been so well, ever since I realized that I probably just suffer from "Schiz Ocd'', DP/DR and anxiety, last night, however, I had a thought that took over and i have never had before. I was looking at the moon and it was surprisingly low that night, and i just had the thought, "what if the moon is a lie, or like fake or something" and then i couldn't stop thinking about it, and i couldnt think about anything else but that i wasnt sure if I was going crazy. I woke up this morning and I didnt think about it much. But at night tonight, OMG its been driving me insane. I even looked up "is the moon real" on google tonight and i found you tube videos on it and like thousands of people questioning the same thing. I will just have all sorts of thoughts about it like Truman show kind of thoughts like its not real and just writing this freaks me out because I can't help but think that a part of me is so messed up in the head and that maybe, just maybe, I am finally starting to lose my marbles. I blame it all on the psychedelic drugs take for over a year and a half, even if it was just mostly weed. But still. I rarely feel miserable and like i wanna be done, in fact, i feel like im more and more cured each day. But on days like this, I wonder. I really really do. I cant tell if its just obsessive thinking or what but if anyone knows whats wrong with me i would greatly appreciate it.
So I have been so well, ever since I realized that I probably just suffer from "Schiz Ocd'', DP/DR and anxiety, last night, however, I had a thought that took over and i have never had before. I was looking at the moon and it was surprisingly low that night, and i just had the thought, "what if the moon is a lie, or like fake or something" and then i couldn't stop thinking about it, and i couldnt think about anything else but that i wasnt sure if I was going crazy. I woke up this morning and I didnt think about it much. But at night tonight, OMG its been driving me insane. I even looked up "is the moon real" on google tonight and i found you tube videos on it and like thousands of people questioning the same thing. I will just have all sorts of thoughts about it like Truman show kind of thoughts like its not real and just writing this freaks me out because I can't help but think that a part of me is so messed up in the head and that maybe, just maybe, I am finally starting to lose my marbles. I blame it all on the psychedelic drugs take for over a year and a half, even if it was just mostly weed. But still. I rarely feel miserable and like i wanna be done, in fact, i feel like im more and more cured each day. But on days like this, I wonder. I really really do. I cant tell if its just obsessive thinking or what but if anyone knows whats wrong with me i would greatly appreciate it.
