No,even on vacation i wake up like 6 in morning with nothing to do. I feel guilty if i am not doing something productive. Small talk with friends i find extremly boring if is not constructive talk with some goal or new informations. What i mean sometimes i feel my head like in some bubble with senses disconnected. And sometimes like being wake up a little by bad weather for example rain falls like smell of rain or when is cold i feel more alive. I miss more of this alive moments.