[stickdude]

anyone go out with people and mainly just stay to themselves? it seems whenever i go out, my friends will socialize while i just sort of watch everything going on, like i'm in my own little world inside my head. i'll talk sometimes but mostly i'm quiet. the only time i really socialize is when i'm drunk or high. it's rough too because if i go out with a girl, i still keep to myself mainly when i want to be active, talk a lot, and not be inside my own little world. i guess mostly i just feel dead to the world.

 

[nemesis]

I know how you feel stick-dude. I found myself utterly lost for words while I was out enjoying a few social drinks with some friends on the weekend. I didnt feel anxious about the situation, yet the thoughts and subjects which would normally come to mind when youre in a conversation were not there, only an empty blankness. Personally, the 'lack of thought' problem is not soley related to verbal communication either. I seem to have issues on all areas which involve creative thought.

 

[maria]

yeah, that's why I don't socialize very much, I feel like a mute twat and just not equipped for communication, at the moment at least. Some animal would be good company, they're silent but yet so speedy. In fact, I'm not going to even try meeting people until I'm ready for it, which is probably not the right way.

 

[Guest]

i usually talk alot and only go out when im in the mood. If i know im gonna be quite the whole time i just wont go out. Having nothing to say sucks but i dont really have that problem unless i just dont feel like talking at all

 

[Guest]

this is a problem that plagues me the most. i never have annything to say and it makes me feel so dumb. when i do talk, it is ussually just to fill space( no meaningfule or genuine expression), and that makes me feel fake. i also have this strange obbsession with my facial expressions, for some reason. i think the thing with facial expressions is that i try to be enthusiastic and positive but i uisually dont feel that way, this makes me worried that some one will see my act. i have decided though that it is better to attempt positivity than to mope around. what is the difference between being fake and trying to be happy? i have never been comfortable around people and after my traumatic lsd experience i have focussed on it almost every minute of every day. I want to have a point of view, be enthusiastic, make people laugh again. I WILL!!!! Baby steps.

 

[berlin]

I dont have a problem socially. Its not always that I can be bothered (lack of interest) but previously I was outgoing and expressive. This continues, because I have limited self consiousness at the moment. My social 'experience' carries me through(without even thinking about it). Also i work with the public and can't afford not to interact.
I definately experience things differently than others on the site.
Maria I know you too don't feel as such, I think this is why Iam not disabled in public. I often feel like Iam insincere or spectating a little but it doesnt stop me from interacting.

 

[enngirl5]

You say drunk or high? Do you smoke pot? Just curious if it aggravates your dp?

 

[Guest]

please kill me now

 

[stickdude]

You say drunk or high? Do you smoke pot? Just curious if it aggravates your dp?

drinking does the next day, but afterwards, not really. smoking weed, however, does cause my anxiety/dp to be worser days after i smoke. while i'm high though, i seem to talk to people a lot better and have better conversations. i have social anxiety as well though, but even when i'm with someone i'm comfortable around, i talk a lot better high or drunk. when i'm sober, it feels like i have such an empty head sometimes when i'm around people. maybe from thinking too much?

 

[Guest]

stick dude i think thinking too much is the problem, at least for me. in social situations i am constantly anxious and thinking about how i have nothing to say this in turn makes my brain shut down and i do have nothing to say, vicouse cycle.

 

[stickdude]

I seem to have issues on all areas which involve creative thought.

this is a big issue i have going on now, creativity. my creativity has seem to have diminished completely, or have very little at all, that i used to have. whenever i say something in a conversation, it's always lacking. it's like i'm very blunt on everything i say now. i guess you could say creativity has affected everything i'm doing now, such as ideas for videos i make, and music.

has this happend to anyone else? hopefully this is all due to me worrying so much and spending time alone for a while, and not early psychosis symptoms.

 

[Guest]

I lose creativity when I'm just sort of depressed. I actually gain creativity when I'm REALLY depressed.