Not so good..
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i cant sleep and I'm suffering so badly, i feel like i'm gone. I should not have to suffer like this. I feel like I'm in a dream state. I saw my wife for about 2 seconds as she stopped in to get a book for school and i felt like it was not even real. I have been sitting in bed wide awake since 5AM and now its 530PM and i feel like a freak
I do not want to be this way. I also know there is noting i can do about it. The meds i take are not working, my next Psych appointment is on the 12th. I cant get any real drugs. I have went from drinking every day to only drinking once a week if that. I have been fine with out the drink.
I'm just losing it all. I'm lonely, depressed and just feel abandoned over all. This is not right. People should not have to feel this way.
I'm freaking out about every thing. If i hear my own voice i freak out. I cant hardly talk on the phone. I cant look at my self in the mirror. This is just sick. I'm so depressed. My eyesight is all fucked up, i feel like I'm cross eyed. I JUST WANT TO BE NOROMAL...
I do not want to be this way. I also know there is noting i can do about it. The meds i take are not working, my next Psych appointment is on the 12th. I cant get any real drugs. I have went from drinking every day to only drinking once a week if that. I have been fine with out the drink.
I'm just losing it all. I'm lonely, depressed and just feel abandoned over all. This is not right. People should not have to feel this way.
I'm freaking out about every thing. If i hear my own voice i freak out. I cant hardly talk on the phone. I cant look at my self in the mirror. This is just sick. I'm so depressed. My eyesight is all fucked up, i feel like I'm cross eyed. I JUST WANT TO BE NOROMAL...
Yep.
Again... If I were you I would demand a Benzo... they gave into me when they saw how bad I got.
Though my dp/dr is still at an extreme height I seem very calm... still suffering this madness but at least I know I'll get a good sleep.
Trust me, I know how you feel and going through the exact same thing, if you have seen my posts... they even wanted me in hospital but they thought best to send me home with Benzos.
Its crazy and I don't know if I can even handle it anymore.
Again... If I were you I would demand a Benzo... they gave into me when they saw how bad I got.
Though my dp/dr is still at an extreme height I seem very calm... still suffering this madness but at least I know I'll get a good sleep.
Trust me, I know how you feel and going through the exact same thing, if you have seen my posts... they even wanted me in hospital but they thought best to send me home with Benzos.
Its crazy and I don't know if I can even handle it anymore.
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space i hear your pain i really do. like my sister just walked up the stairs and she didn't seem real at all. its hard for me to look at people. i want to be normal real real real bad. i don't understand how people can feel this way. i feel cursed and i didn't do anything bad. all i did was smoke some pot, ummm... yea i don't know anymore either. i haven't gone the drinking route, maybe every now and think but i don't really get drunk. my psych is nice but there's not much she can do to help other than talk and give medicine.
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