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well i thought i was getting better but idk, i still do not feel anything physical at all. like the chair the bed, the ground. do any of you feel this way? because i feel alone. sometimes it feels like it might come back and it doesn't. i really don't know how to get my life back.
for the past few weeks i have been goin to this program with people with other problems like therapy and stuff, but it hasn't helped that much only a little. all it did was give me some support, but now that i'm finished with that i need support from this board again. does anyone here know what its like to not enjoy anything at all? and trying to do things that excited you or things that were fun for you first of all doesn't feel like u are doin it, and second of all there's no emotions attached to it?
also, i was wondering if any of you have like family members and friends not seeming real? and like not feeling hugs and kisses, and not feeling any sort of love for anyone or anything?
also in my dreams i don't feel things as well. sometimes my dreams feel so real that i will say something in my sleep and then wake up and sometimes i wish the dreams were real. a lot of my dreams include basketball and music. also, if like there is any sort of vibration in the ground i won't feel it at all, like any sort of noise. i have no reaction to it. like my dog barking or what not. i don't feel annoyed and i find that weird.
i find a lot of things weird and i don't feel like i am human and don't know when i am going to get out of this. its just so horrible. i've done every physical test. checked for lyme. got a cat scan, mri, eeg, stress test. everything. a test to check muscles and what not, everything physical is fine so i don't understand why i feel like this, why i feel so dead and not alive.
i look at other people having gf's living life and i used to be like them, and i know i can't be like them right now. there's no use in having a gf when you can't feel anything physical or emotional. there's just no use. this is all just a nightmare. sorry for the rant. the emotional part isn't the biggest thing for me its the physical not feeling the ground not feeling things in my hand and feeling like i have no body parts, just a mind that seems like its not working.
so i don't know what to do anymore. i've been searching for so much help, but no one knows the answers. nobody. i sure as hell don't. i have tried and tried and tried and a lot of times i feel like i'm tired of trying.anyone one else feel this way i even tried like working and it did nothing for me. i try doin things i used to love or was heavily interested in and it does nothing. i try watching what used to be my favorite show the chappelle show and i mite laugh a little, but i used to crack up at that show. i seriously used to laugh my a$$ off.
dealing with this is so hard, and i don't want to end my life, no matter how much i think about it or seem like its better than living like this, i really want to live. its just so hard. i just want to see if anyone can i guess relate to my problems and i want to see what others try because i have tried a lot of things. sry for this being soo long. i had to rant. just reaching out for some help.
for the past few weeks i have been goin to this program with people with other problems like therapy and stuff, but it hasn't helped that much only a little. all it did was give me some support, but now that i'm finished with that i need support from this board again. does anyone here know what its like to not enjoy anything at all? and trying to do things that excited you or things that were fun for you first of all doesn't feel like u are doin it, and second of all there's no emotions attached to it?
also, i was wondering if any of you have like family members and friends not seeming real? and like not feeling hugs and kisses, and not feeling any sort of love for anyone or anything?
also in my dreams i don't feel things as well. sometimes my dreams feel so real that i will say something in my sleep and then wake up and sometimes i wish the dreams were real. a lot of my dreams include basketball and music. also, if like there is any sort of vibration in the ground i won't feel it at all, like any sort of noise. i have no reaction to it. like my dog barking or what not. i don't feel annoyed and i find that weird.
i find a lot of things weird and i don't feel like i am human and don't know when i am going to get out of this. its just so horrible. i've done every physical test. checked for lyme. got a cat scan, mri, eeg, stress test. everything. a test to check muscles and what not, everything physical is fine so i don't understand why i feel like this, why i feel so dead and not alive.
i look at other people having gf's living life and i used to be like them, and i know i can't be like them right now. there's no use in having a gf when you can't feel anything physical or emotional. there's just no use. this is all just a nightmare. sorry for the rant. the emotional part isn't the biggest thing for me its the physical not feeling the ground not feeling things in my hand and feeling like i have no body parts, just a mind that seems like its not working.
so i don't know what to do anymore. i've been searching for so much help, but no one knows the answers. nobody. i sure as hell don't. i have tried and tried and tried and a lot of times i feel like i'm tired of trying.anyone one else feel this way i even tried like working and it did nothing for me. i try doin things i used to love or was heavily interested in and it does nothing. i try watching what used to be my favorite show the chappelle show and i mite laugh a little, but i used to crack up at that show. i seriously used to laugh my a$$ off.
dealing with this is so hard, and i don't want to end my life, no matter how much i think about it or seem like its better than living like this, i really want to live. its just so hard. i just want to see if anyone can i guess relate to my problems and i want to see what others try because i have tried a lot of things. sry for this being soo long. i had to rant. just reaching out for some help.
